Fated To Love You

Chapter 41

Sumedh shockingly looked at her. His lips trembelled as he couldn't find any word. Slowly, his expressions shifted from shock to a mix of horror and empathy. He slowly placed hand above her hand.She instantly looked at his hand and then at him. Slowly, she looked down.

"I.. I.. I."He gulped while looking around and then looked at her again,"I am so sorry you had to go through that alone."His voice filled with a mixture of sorrow and determination,"But, I.. I promise, you are not alone now."

"It.. it wasn't my fault.. trust me" she almost whispered in a pleading tone."But.. I.. I.. understand if you.. if you want me to leave.." She continued in the same tone.

"I can't leave you ever.. I am sorry for being so rude to you.. and making your life tough when you were already facing a lot."He said in same low and guilty tone,"I love you Himani.. Please trust me."

She looked at him in shock, "L.. love?" Her eyes welled up and she took her hand back. "Sahi hi kehte the aai baba, nahi btana chahiye tha aapko.." she sobbed a little while looking down.

"Un.. Unhe pta hai iss baremain ?"He asked shockingly,"Aur.. kyu.. Kyu nhi btana chahiye tha ? Kab huwa tha ye rape ? Shadi ke baad ?"

Tears fell from her eyes on hearing the word,"That's.. that's none of your business. Sabko bas apna matlab nikalna hota hai. Isiliye nahi gye na apne relatives ke wahan ? Aapke bhi aise hi intentions the na?" She asked in a choking voice.

He got worried when he noticed the voice,"Nhi.. Nhi.. aaise koi intentions nhi the mere.. I swear. Mujhe sirf baat karni thi.. islea nhi gya.. please aaise royo mat.. Let.. Let me tell you my side of story, then you decide. Please.. shant ho jayo."He said softly and worriedly. He then told her each and everything about his past and dreams.

"Trust me.. Aaj to main bas baat krnein aaya tha.. agar tum bolti ki mujhe divorce de do.. mujhe mere boyfriend ke paas jana hai to main koi question nhi puchta.. Sapnein mein sirf ek baar rote huwe dekha tha.. aur kitnein time tak tension ke maare soo nhi paya tha.. I had so many questions.. vo sab puchna tha mujhe aaj."He said worriedly as he thought that he wouldn't able to convince her.

"But you.. you hate me.. I know all this is a lie." She said while shifting away from him. "You.. you want me to divorce you because you hate me.. aur ye jaan-ne ke baad to definitely. I understand.. chali jaaungi main. Bas.. aai baba ko mat batana, chali jaungi main" she sobbed more.

"This is not lie.. I can prove it to you."He said, quickly jumped down from the bed and quickly brought the drawing book. He opened the book and showed the eyes,"See.. ye jab first time tumhari eyes dikhi thi sapnein mein.. bahut sad the... ye iss jagha hum milte the.. aur ye sab."

She looked at the drawings and took the book in her hands. She flipped through the pages with trembling fingers while tears rolled down from her eyes and dropped on the pages.

"But you really hate me.. aapko meri shakal bhi nhi dekhni thi.. aapko mera aas paas rehna bhi pasand nahi hai.. ye sab sach nahi ho sakta. I know you hate me. Everybody hates me.. I don't believe you.." she said the last few lines in a heartbroken tone.

"I didn't hate you.. haan thoda gussa tha because mere bahut try karnein ke baad bhi you never spoke openly and being a teacher I felt disrespected sometimes and whenever I tried to talk, I never got any straight forward reply. And, Yes.. I thought that I lost my dream girl because of you, because shadi wale raat I got dream in which she said... I mean.. you said that you would never come back to my dream to meet. I was heart broken."

She put the drawing book on the bed. "How.. how can I be anyone's dream girl? You just want me to feel better, don't you?" She scoffed while wiping her tears. "Isiliye bol rhe ho na ye sab? Please don't waste your time on me. Aapko to mujhse boht better mil jaaygi.. jo.. jo aapse pyaar karegi, aapki family ki care kar paaygi, jo.. jo.. pure hogi.." Her voice started breaking towards the end.

"I don't want anyone else.. for a long time I have waited for you.. na jaane kaha kaha nhi dhunda.. kitni minnate kari hai bhagwan se.. I don't want anyone else. I want you. Your love, your care, your presence in my life mean more to me than anything else. You are not just my dream girl.. you are everything for me. You are the one, I have been searching for."He said emotionally.

"Everyone wants something or the other from me but nobody cares what I want. I have nothing to give you, sir. I have no feelings left, I am empty inside.. all I have is this.." she pointed at her body. "Take this if you want. I won't even fight you. I have nothing more than this left. Just give me the pills.. before.. before you do anything.." She said in a choking voice as tears streamed my eyes. "Please let me go. I can't live like this.. I beg you.. I don't want to live anymore"

Sumedh's heart ached as he listened to her heartbreaking words. His eyes welled up while he sat in front of her but maintained a distance.

"I understand that you are feeling hopeless right now.. but please listen to me and trust me. You are not alone and you are not without any value. Your life is precious and I won't let you give it up."His voice was very gentle,"I care about you not because I want to take advantage of your body, but because I truly love you. Your feelings matter to me and I am here to support you. You don't have to face this alone. I won't let you go Himani. I won't let you give up on yourself. We'll get through this together. We will find solution. I promise. Please let me help you."

"There is no solution to this" she cried. "Everything is over. I can't live like this.. I can't. I am tired of everything. I'm tired of dying everyday and still having to face everything. Isse zyada nahi ho paayga mujhse" she broke down completely.

He slowly and gently pulled her into a comforting embrace. He started crying too when he watched Himani's pain pour out in tears.

"I won't pretend that I am understanding your pain, but I won't give up on you either. I know, it is very hard to handle everything, but you are not alone anymore. I am here for you, now and always."

"I'm sorry.. you.. you didn't deserve this. I should have run away.. I'm sorry. I'm very sorry.." she cried and started facing difficulty in breathing.

He held her close and his heart heavy with sorrow as he felt her pain. He continued holding her close, offering her the warmth and support she desperately required at that moment.

"Take deep breaths Himani. You are going to be okay. I won't leave your side. We'll get through this together. You have nothing to apologize for. None of this is your fault. You are not alone and not to be blamed. I am here for you. Please don't blame yourself. You are worthy of love."

"Why did this happen to me? What did I do wrong? Why me? I.. I was like his daughter.." she said in a broken tone and fresh tears oozed from her eyes.

He listened to her silently but his heart pained at her words. He rubbed her back to console her and waited for her to continue.

"Aai baba ko btaya tha maine.. par.. par unhone kaha ki aisi aulaad hone se achha tha ki.. ki hmari koi aulaad hi na hoti. Ek to.. ek to beti di.. wo bhi aisi" the pain in her voice increased as did her crying.

"Kab huwa tha aaisa ?"He asked as gentle as possible.

"C.. college aane se pehle.." she sobbed.

"Iss baar ? Sha.. Shadi ke baad ?"He asked surprisingly.

She nodded in a no while crying.

"Pehli baar.. college join karne se pehle.." she choked.

"Tell me everything, please."He requested calmly.