Fated To Love You

Chapter 42

"Wo.. wo to kaafi saalon se aise galat touch krte the.. tab.. tab to kaafi chhoti thi main. Mujhe nahi pata tha kya sahi hai kya galat hai. Ajeeb lagta tha par mujhe nahi thi tab smjh. Bolte the ki boht garmi hai na.. aao kapde utaar deta hun fir khel lena" Himani gulped while crying as herthroat went dry,"He.. he used to remove my clothes aur khelne ke bahane he used to.. he used to.. touch me everywhere. Aur bolte the.. secret rakhna hmari is game ko. Hmesha kuch na kuch tareeka dhoondhte the. Fir jab.. jab thodi badi hui to smjh aane laga ki ye galat hai.. maine retaliate kiya when he caressed my back as.. as I was drawing.. toh he.. he stripped.. stripped me naked aur maara mujhe. He forcefully kissed me.. and bit my lip.. it started bleeding. He again warned me and I got scared. Kuch nahi btaya kisiko. Thoda time.. ye sab chala and.. and one day I told aai about all bas. Unhone ignore krdiya. Aur ulta daant diya ki tv kamm dekha kar. Mama hai tera.. kuch bhi mat bol. Itna khayal rakhta hai. I.. I was very hurt. Meri aai hi meri baat nahi sun rhi thi.. I.. I devoted all my time to studies. Khelna, extra curricular activities sab chhod diya maine. I felt guilty for.. for what was happening to me. Fir jab college ke liye bahar nikalne ka mauka mila to I grabbed the opportunity.. ki ab us.. us jagah vapas nahi jaaungi. Par aai baba convince nahi ho rhe the. Ladki ko bahar nahi bhejna tha unhe. Scholarship se bhi nhi maan rhe the. I was trying every way possible to convince them.  Then one day.. he.. he.. he came home. It was around a year since he hadn't met me. I.. I had grown physically. He.. couldn't resist and.. and that's when he did it for the first time." She started yowling,"I just froze. I couldn't believe what was happening to me. It felt like a nightmare." She stopped speaking and kept yowling while tightly holding his shirt.

He was silently listening to everything. His heart breaks as he listened to Himani's trauma and abuse. His hands trembled with anger and sorrow and tears felled down as he comprehended the depth of her suffering.

"And.. that's that's why, vo shadi ka lea itni jaldi kar rhe the ? Because they wanted to save their image ?"He asked nervously.

She nodded in yes,"M..my own parents didn't believe me. I was bleeding and in a lot of pain, aai ko btaya to she slapped me and said ki maine hi seduce kiya hoga.. vrna koi aadmi kabhi aisa nahi karta.. l.. ladki ki hi galti hoti hai.."She sobbed uncontrollably,"Aai boht royi, pitayi bhi ki ki kaisi beti hui hai.. naam kharab krdiya.. izzat kharab krdi parivaar ki aur bola ki..." She didn't complete the sentence,"B.. baba ne bola ki tu jaa jis college jaana hai, wahan.. wahan jaake munh kaala kar. Hume baksh de" there was a lot of pain in her voice as she told him this which showed how their anger and negligence had affected her. A child expects their parent to protect them from all evil and help them through everything but here they blamed her for what happened to her.

"Wo keh rhe the abhi to 18 ki hi hui hun to boht rishte mil jaaynge.. aur shaadi ho.. hojaaygi to sudhar jaaungi main. J.. jo bhi pehla rishta aata uske saath hi shaadi karvani thi.."She sobbed.

Tears rolled down from Sumedh's eyes his heart breaking into pieces as he heard Himani's agonizing words. His chest tightened with the weight of her pain, and he wraps his arms around her, holding her close as if to shield her from further harm. In that embrace, he poured all his love and empathy, silently promising to be her rock in the midst of the storm, and to never let her face the darkness alone.

"Aur.. pregnant kab huyi ? Kaise huyi ?"He asked in low voice after sometime.

"Sh..shaadi ke baad jab ghar gyi thi. M..mera bilkul mann nahi tha ghar jaane ka.. par dono aai ne bola ki jaana padega.. rasam hoti hai. Tab ek.. ek din aai baba bahar gye the kisi kaam se.. tab wo..wo ghar pe aaya tha. Bol.. bol rha tha ki boht.. boht aag lagi thi, isliye shaadi karli.." her voice broke even more as she recalled the incident,"Wait.. wait nahi ho rha tha to mere paas aajati. B.. boht ganda ganda bola.. aur.. fir.. wo force karne laga.. main ladhi thi, maine maara tha.. maine koshish ki thi bachne ki.. boht koshish ki thi.. par.. I couldn't stop him. He was very angry. He.. he tied me up and b..beat me with a belt because.. because I tried to stop him" her voice was slowly becoming incoherent as she was crying a lot while speaking and was hiccuping in between.

"He raped me again.. maine fir aai baba ko btaya. Unhone fir meri hi galti nikali aur bola ki.. ki tu vapas jaa aur jawai ke saath.. apna rishta.. theek kar. Unhe khush rakh.. kab tak aise.. aise munh kala karvaygi? Agle hi din vapas bhej diya mujhe.. I got.. pregnant a..after that. I swear meri koi galti nahi thi. Maine kuch nahi kiya. I swear. He forced me.. I swear" she quavered.

"Shh Shh.. I know.. I know tumhari koi galati nhi thi.. I am so sorry.. I couldn't see ki tum kis cheez se guzar rhi thi.. I am sorry.. I wasn't present when you needed me a lot.. but please don't ever think about taking your life.. Please.. Main tumhe kabhi uss jagha wapas nhi jaane dungga.. humesha protect karungga."He said in emotional tone.

"But.. but how can I live like this? Sab khatam hogya.. I.. I had dreams.. ambitions par ab kuch nhi bacha.. he's.. he's never going to stop.."She sobbed more.

Sumedh's heart sank at the weight of Himani's words. Holding her even tighter, he felt a surge of determination washed over him.

"I won't let him hurt you anymore, Himani," he whispers fiercely. "We'll find a way to stop him, together. You're not alone in this fight. I'll stand by your side every step of the way, no matter what it takes."

"I'm pregnant with my rapist's baby" she whispered in a broken tone."I was not ready for any of this.. I don't know how to deal with this. The more I try to forget everything, the more it hits me every second. I.. I have lost myself.." she sobbed.

"Umm.. if.. if you want.. we can go for abortion."He said in low voice while caressing her hair,"We can freshly start everything. We can look for new house and the address will be unknown to everyone.. he can never come to you. I will never let you go back to your house alone.. I will always be there with you."

She looked at him with red, swollen but hopeful eyes though instantly her eyes fell,"Par.. aai ko kya jawab denge? Wo.. wo to boht khush hain.. jabse unhe pregnancy ka pata chala hai.. aur.. aur is bache ki bhi kya galti hai? Iske jeene ka haq kaise chheen lun.. but I can't do this to you also. Aapke liye.. kitna difficult hoga.. kisi aur ka bacha rakhna.. I don't know what to do. It's a mess" she said frustratedly.