Despite the cruel world she had a smile on her face-no matter how fake. She was kind and polite and never swore. But what happens when her step-father dies her abuser her rapist dies in a car accident? What happens when she finds out she has nine br...
"why is she dressed like she's going to a funeral?" One asks. Oh ummm ok great thanks I guess. They don't like me already "Xavier" The oldest looking one scolds "What? She does" Xavier asks "That is not how you introduce yourself" he says Xavier shrugs the old one sighs muttering something under his breath. "I'm Antonio" he says "Luca" another boy says coldly "Carlo" another says pissed yet coldly "Raffaele" this boy sounds bored "Dante" he sounds annoyed "Xavier" "Xander" "Rocco" they say coldly. Have I done something wrong? "I'm Luna it's nice to meet you" I smile. All of them glare at me but Antonio. Did I say the wrong thing? Do I look ugly? Are my eyes weird looking? Is there something in my teeth? Is my hair messy? Do I sound bad? Is my voice too high pitched? Do I sound fake? "Boys be nice" Antonio scolds. Most roll their eyes. Ok so they don't like me that's fine nobody does anyways but still kinda hoped it would be better. "Non mi piace lei" Carlo says annoyed (I don't like her). I speak Italian. I push down the hurt. At least they don't stab with literal knives anyways just words. "Stesso" All but Antonio says (same). I just keep a smile on my face despite wanting to bury myself in a whole and suffocate "Non l'abbiamo nemmeno conosciuta" Antonio says (we haven't even gotten to know her) they shrug. Great. They don't care so don't get attached
May as well just kill yourself not even your bio family wants you Great now these thoughts are here again. Frick frack. Just give everything time I'm sure things will get better maybe hopefully. We all just stand there in silence them staring at me me staring at them. Totally not awkward. Note the sarcasm. I have zero social skills perks of having no friends and being isolated all your life so I have no idea what to do. Do I talk to them? Do I ask questions? How do I not be a burden? I mean they already hate me so yeah. I don't know. Dam I envy people with social skills like how do you just talk to people without overthinking everything you say and do.
The only time I don't overthink when I'm talking to someone is when I'm with kids they are just my safe place that along with animals although I will admit I have a slight fear of them but at the same time I love them. Something I love about kids is they have no filter so I get the truth which is something I like considering I grew up being lied to. Kids are also just sweet and kids their hearts are kind and gentle it's a nice break from the real world.
I know I come across as soft and sweet but that's purely because I chose to ignore the bad. It takes a bit to piss me off but if you do run and run far. I have a temper when I get pissed and it's not a good thing. I wish I could control it but sometimes it just explodes before I can even register I'm angry. I mean it's either anger or a mental breakdown. They are bad. When I have a mental breakdown most the time I end up in the hospital for blood loss, attempted suicide, stitches. Yeah it's not good but hey it's better than anger because that just results in me hurting someone else I would rather hurt myself which I do regardless of my anger or not.
Anyways lets get out of my head and focus on the main issue. Do I speak or not? "Dante show Luna her room please" Antonio instructs. Dante groans "Why me?" he asks "Because you annoy me so I may as well get rid of you" Antonio says. Dam that's pretty sad. I thought Antonio was nice. "Everyone annoys you" Dante argues. "yeah" Antonio grins. I'm so confused. Why is Antonio smiling now? And how did Dante get away with arguing? That's so weird. "Anyways" Antonio says "Well, would you look at the time I have to ummmmm play Fortnite bye" Dante runs away. Oh um ok. "Me too" The triplets say and follow Dante upstairs followed by everyone else but Antonio. Ok that's fine. Antonio sighs "Don't stress they'll come around" he says softly to me "it's fine" I smile. "Come on I'll show you your room you must be tired" he says. I'm always tired. I just nod and follow him upstairs with my bag. We go down a long hallway and to the very end "Ok so this is your room the rooms go in age order" he tells me I nod "Each room is soundproof and has speakers" he says I grin. I can blast music and not worry about anyone hearing it. YESSSS. He opens the doors to my room and my jaw drops. Holy sugar mother lord.
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"we didn't really know what you liked and blue was just a guess we can change it if you want" Antonio starts to ramble. "Antonio" I say he looks at me "I love it blue is one of my favourite colours" I grin he sighs in relief "here is a remote control for the led's" he hands me a remote. I CAN CHANGE MY ROOMS COLOURS YESSSSSS. This is soooooo cool. "Well, I'll let you settle in and stuff someone will come get you for dinner" he says "Ok thank you" I smile at him he smiles and walks away. I walk into my room shut my doors and do a happy dance. I can't help myself. I take a few deep breaths to calm my nerves and excitement.
There is still one sibling to go and he's the oldest not nerve racking at all. I put all my clothes away in the huge walk in wardrobe that also has led's. My clothes took up one shelve. I go to my bathroom that is black with led's and put my stuff away making sure to hide my blade. I connect my phone to my room speakers and fall onto my bed feeling a little better. I think I should take a nap.
I turn my music down a bit take 2 sleeping pills lay down and slowly fall asleep
