The Mafia's Princess

Chapter 36

I struggle to breathe and see as I sit there in a ball and cry. 

I hate myself 
Just die
Everyone is better off without you
Everyone hates you
You are so stupid and dramatic 

these thoughts run around my head the whole time. My headache continues to grow as I cry harder and harder and pull at my hair. I go to the bathroom after grabbing a pair of scissors from my school bag I take my hair out of it's messy bun and brush it down with my fingers then just cut it. hair falls down and onto the floor till I'm left with hair just below my shoulders uneven and looking like shit it just makes me cry harder. Fuck. 

-time skip- *twinkly music plays* 

It took a while to calm down but eventually I did and I realised the damage I did to my hair. Fuck. It looks horrid. I put my hoodie up as I walk downstairs where my stalkers and Theo are watching tv in the living room. I just sit next to Cyrus and put my head on his shoulder. he wraps an arm around my waist pulling me closer and providing me comfort. 
"you good?" Theo asks I just nod 
"why do you have your hoodie up?" Hades asks 
"I think I fucked up a bit" I say they sigh 
"What did you do?" Theo asks. I take my hoodie down their eyes widen "yeah you fucked up" He says shocked "what how what" he says shocked "What possessed you a fucking demon?" he asks I can't help the chuckle 
"yes a mental breakdown demon that apparently needs to not be in the vicinity of scissors" I say 
"You look like hell" He comments "your family is going to kill me" he says 
"You really should have just told them you haven't seen her since this morning instead of lying" Dominico smirks 
"Shit your fucked" I say to Theo 
"Very and your hair is fucked" he says 
"do you want me to try and salvage whatever that is?" Ares asks 
"nope I am waiting for my family to get back and going to a hairdresser I don't trust any of you to fix this mess without fucking it up plus I want to dye it" I say 
"Girls a weird creatures" Theo says 
"No just ones with bpd, anxiety, social anxiety, depression, autism, ptsd, and an eating disorder" I say shrugging. He just stares at me I grin 
"you can smile?" He asks shocked I roll my eyes 
"bye bye" I say 
"I'm not leaving Alessandro's orders and as much as I love to not listen to him and piss him off I should listen and watch you because you are batshit crazy" He says 
"Rude" I say frowning. Batshit crazy is not the right words "I prefer creative" I say annoyed. 
"Creatively batshit crazy" he say
"I am not crazy" I say. Sure I see and hear shit bat that doesn't make me crazy. Then my phone rings. It's been blowing up. I look and see Xavier's name. do I really want to answer? No. Should I answer? Probably. I answer and put it on speaker 

"AHHHHHHH" someone answers 
"you scream like a girl" I say 
"LUNA" they yell. here we go. 
"People I don't want to talk to because you annoy me" I say. Theo snorts "Ew" I say side eyeing him he just rolls his eyes 
"You are strange" Theo says 
"At least I'm not stuck with Alessandro that's a curse within itself" I say 
"Real" Theo laughs 
"I'm here too you idiots" Alessandro says flatly 
"Good" I say "Be offended" I say grinning. Theo and my stalkers laugh 
"Who else is there?" Carlo asks 
"Take a guess" I say 
"Stalkers?" Rocco asks 
"Yep" I say. 
"before you go off at her they are pretty chill and haven't caused her any harm" Theo says. Thank you. 
"That is the nicest thing anyone has done for me" I smile at Theo. "Well you may be my second favourite human" I say happily 
"Seriously?" Carlo asks pissed "First Carla now this idiot the hell" He says pissed I laugh of course. 
"I am not an idiot" Theo says 
"Theo need I remind you of the stupid shit we have done?" Alessandro asks 
"We meaning we are both idiots" Theo says I nod at him in approval maybe he isn't soooo bad. 
"also how long until you guys get back?" I ask 
"not tomorrow the next day. Why?" Antonio asks 
"Kinda fucked up a bit" I say 
"oh fuck" they say 
"we may need a bit of context because this can range from smashing something to murder" Luca says 
"It's neither but it's bad" I say. They sigh 
"What is it?" Carlo asks
"Nope not saying I'm going to let you overthink it enjoy goodbye" I say and hang up. Theo and my stalkers laugh. I shrug "May as well let them overthink it I mean it's going to be funny to see what they come up with" I say. Then Carlo texts me