The Mafia's Princess

Chapter 6

"Am I clear?" he says coldly. 
"Yeah however I will not listen to the music thing sorry everything else I'm fine with but some of my music has swear words and it's the one thing I can't stand people trying to control" I say keeping my voice calm and level but I'm scared this dude could beat me to a pulp no he could put me in the ground. Bye bye Luna. 
"That's fine" he says coldly and walks out. Great. Ok. So, now I'm left trapped in my thoughts. Great said nobody ever. 

I decide to put some music on and read. I go sit in my bed and start reading. I'm currently reading Haunting Adeline. Dam. I would happily let Zade stalk me. Not going to lie he's cute and tall. What is it with everyone being tall and me short? I get to chapter 16 and my jaw drops. HE DID WHAT? AND SHE LET HIM? HOLY SHIT. 

"Nerd" I hear I look up and see Raffaele "Bed now" he says coldly I smile and nod 
"Goodnight" I say. He just shuts the door turning off the light. I put my book on my bedside table and lay down listening to music letting it fill my senses. I find music helps me sleep as it tends to put the voices on hold or quiet them down. I lay in bed for 2 hours before I start to get bored. I get up and wonder around my room laying in different places and positions trying to sleep but it never coming. I decide at 4am to get dressed for the day. 

I shower and change into black jeans and a hoodie and socks because cold feet. I do my concealer then walk downstairs to the kitchen the only place I know. I put my headphones on and blast music as I decide to make breakfast because I'm bored and it's the least I could do. Around 6am Antonio and Alessandro walk down they pause when they see me. I turn my music off 

"Morning" I smile 
"Your awake?" Antonio asks surprised 
"yeah" I say. I didn't sleep not even 20 minutes but I'm fine. 
"You can cook?" he asks surprised. Growing up I didn't have a choice 
"Yeah" I say. "How did you guys sleep?" I ask 
"Good" Antonio says I look at Alessandro who gives me an emotionless stare. Ok. That's fine. It's fine he can ignore me everyone ignores me. 

Who would want to talk to me or even acknowledge me? it's me for crying out loud. "How did you sleep?" He asks me 
"Good" I lie 
"Don't lie" Alessandro says annoyed. Oh shit. I broke a rule 
"sorry" I mutter 
"Tell the truth how did you sleep?" he demands. 
"I didn't" I say 
"and that is because?" he asks coldly. The stupid voices and nightmares 
"Just couldn't" I say. He just walks away while I stand there feeling like shit. I shouldn't have lied 
"What did you make for breakfast?" Antonio asks 
"pancakes" I say 
"don't let him get to you he's always grumpy in the mornings" he says I nod a small smile on my face 
"Ok" I say he smiles at me I smile back. 

Then his phone rings he smiles and leaves leaving me alone again. I can't help the loneliness I feel. I've never been surrounded by so many people but felt so alone. I just put my headphones back on and listen to my music. The first song is Sincerly, Your Son by Officialdjaaron. I just keep cooking pancakes to distract myself from my thoughts. Around 8am everyone comes down. I turn my music off and continue cooking. 

"what did you make?" Dante asks coldly 
"Pancakes" I smile. He nods slightly annoyed. Then Xander trugs downstairs looking like hell. Did he even sleep? I decide to keep my opinion to myself. I finish cooking the pancakes and before I can process they are all gone. Ok. I wasn't hungry anyways. I just grab a banana. I sit down and listen to them all talk about random stuff mainly about their dreams which are funny and weird. I feel ignored nobody has even spoken to me. It's fine they will come around. 

"you guys are taking Luna shopping today" Alessandro says coldly and is met with a lot of complaints. I ignore the hurt that appears in my heart as I sit here listening to everyone but Antonio complain about me like I'm not even here. 

See you should just die it would be easier you mean nothing to nobody you are worthless 
"Enough" Alessandro says annoyed "You are not arguing you are going cancel your plans. You are taking Luna shopping end of" he says emotionlessly. Everyone but Antonio just glares at me 
"Enough boys" Antonio warns everyone just mutters curses under their breaths and eats silently. I just stay silent and stare at the table. Why did they even take me in if they hate me? I could be in a group home by now and have friends although I doubt anyone would talk to me. 

You really are lonely aren't you. you are so lonely it's almost funny. Who even likes you? Nobody can like you hell you don't even like yourself you should honestly just die it would be easier for everyone. 
I try my best to ignore the voice in my head but it does get to me and it really hurts because it's true. After breakfast I run upstairs careful of my ribs and put my shoes on then go downstairs to see Luca and the rest waiting for me. I smile at them as they glare at me. I follow them to the garage. Woah. Have I died? Am I in heaven? The cars and bikes are just beautiful. I smile as I follow them into a Rolls Royce. 

The drive to the mall is silent apart from the music. We get there Carlo gives me a card 
"go and do whatever shop or don't we are going we will be back here at 5" He says coldly. I just get out and they drive off. I sigh. Alone again. I walk inside with a smile and wonder around for an hour just looking at all the different shops. I don't know what to buy or how much I'm allowed to so I just spend the day wandering around the mall. Around midday it started raining so for a while I just watched the rain. Again surrounded by people but so lonely. I should be used to it but I'm not because I never went out or saw anyone apart from at school and most of the time I couldn't even go to school due to my injuries.