The Mafia's Princess

Chapter 22

I wake up in my bed after a pretty good nap. No nightmares for once. I get up and go to my bathroom washing my face and fixing my makeup. I walk out and see a lot of books near my bed. My books. I grin and do a little happy dance. I walk downstairs happily to see it's night time. Dam. I slept a lot. 

I walk into the dinning room 
"good morning sleeping beauty" Dante muses I roll my eyes playfully I'm in a good mood right now. 
"It's night time" I say 
"You don't say" he says sarcastically I chuckle "you eating today?" he asks. I think 
"yeah ok" I say. May as well while I'm in a good mood. He grins. I sit down as we wait for the others Dante and I talking about random things 
"so, I heard you could shoot?" he asks grinning 
"yeah I know how to shoot I'm not the best but I can shoot" I say 
"I heard you put holes in the heads of the targets" Raffaele walks in with a smirk 
"Ok and?" I ask 
"You are good at shooting really good not everyone can do that" he says proudly. I just shrug. It's weird to get praised and someone to be proud of me so I don't really know what to say. 
"You seem to be in a good mood. Who died?" A cousin asks me walking in. I playfully roll my eyes 

"I'm just in a good mood" I say "and death doesn't make me happy as such well depending on who but anyways it doesn't make me happy it just doesn't bother me" I say shrugging 
"Yeah and whose death would make you happy?" Xavier walks in 
"would you like the list?" I ask he chuckles shaking his head
"depends how long is the list?" a cousin asks walking in 
"Fairly long" I say 
"As long as your stalker is on that list I'll do it" Carlo walks in I laugh 
"No idiot the stalker didn't do anything to me" I say "Plus the game is fun" I say smiling 
"What game? It's dangerous to have a stalker" Antonio says 
"You think everything is dangerous" I say 
"real" everyone agrees 
"you eating today?" Antonio asks me 
"yes" I say 
"Good" he says I roll my eyes shaking my head "it is good you need to eat more" He says. I stay silent feeling my good mood slowly slip as the familiar feeling of not wanting to eat starts to appear. he starts to talk about me eating more and the health benefits. I feel my good mood slip completely and my social battery slowly draining. I have a social battery that really depends on my mood when I'm in a good mood it's high and takes a little while to drain but when I feel numb or sad or suicidal it drains really fast and right now it's draining fast. Too fast 

I feel the need to eat completely disappear as I start to feel self conscious. What am I doing? I don't need to eat I'm too fat and ugly I need to lose weight. I just get up and go back to my room ignoring everyone talking to me. I grab my teddy and sit in the corner of my room. I just stare at the ceiling. In my peripheral vision I see a black figure I look and see my step father there. I shrink away in fear. I hope he doesn't notice me. He smirks walking towards me. 
"YOU WHORE YOU ARE WORTHLESS. A SLUT. A MISTAKE. I HOPE YOU DIE YOU FUCKING HOE" he screams at me as sobs overtake my body. I thought he was dead. Then my mother appears in front of me next to him 

"YOU ARE A MISTAKE I WISH I NEVER GAVE BIRTH TO YOU I WISH I GOT AN ABORTION YOU STUPID WORTHLESS HOE" she screams at me as I sob. I thought she was gone too I stabbed her. They keep screaming at me as I sob and cry. Then my door opens and shuts and Alessandro walks in and my mother and step father disappear 
"Luna hey what's wrong?" Alessandro asks worried crouching in front of me. I just cry he pulls me into a hug "I need to know what happened sweety" he says softly 
"They were here" I cry "they came back" I sob 
"who princess?" he asks softly 
"My parents" I sob. I feel his confusion 
"princess they are dead" he says softly 
"but they were just here" I cry 
"it's ok I promise they are dead" he says softly I just shake my head 'no' they were right here. "I swear Luna they are dead I made sure myself" he says softly I just hug him and cry he sighs hugging me tighter "When was the last time you slept?" He asks softly 
"today" I say through cries he nods and keeps hugging me till I eventually calm down 
"you ok?" He asks softly I just nod not moving from his arms. I actually like being hugged by someone there's a first although I like Carlo's hugs too. "maybe you drank too much today" he says I shake my head 'no' 
"I don't hallucinate when I get drunk it stops them" I whisper 
"so, you generally hallucinate?" he asks worried 
"yeah. The night you came in after my nightmare I saw someone from my nightmare" I whisper he nods 
"I'm moving the therapy date to tomorrow" he tells me 
"No" I say sternly 
"Luna you need help" he says
"No I do not" I say annoyed 
"Luna you do" he says softly. I just get up and walk out and downstairs annoyed. "Luna come on don't be like that I only say it because I care" he says softly 
"Well I don't care. I do not need help I am fine on my own" I say pissed. 
"jeez someone's angry" I hear Xavier muter. Ass hole. 
"Xavier" Antonio warns 
"She does need help" Rocco mutters 
"and talking about it when she can hear is not helping ass holes so shut up and let Alessandro deal with it" Antonio says sternly. I roll my eyes. I don't need help I can do it on my own. 
"Luna I'm not arguing with you. You need help and are getting it" Alessandro says sternly 
"I'm not arguing with you either I don't need help I am perfectly fine and normal and I am not getting help because I don't need it" I say pissed 
"Hallucinating isn't normal or ok you need help" he says flatly. I glare at him. Fuck you ass hole. I just storm back upstairs. Fuck this. I walk into the gym and punch the shit out of the boxing bag. I feel my knuckles crack open and blood run down them. I know they are going to bruise. Should have wrapped them but I'm too pissed to care