Fated Or Doomed

Tempt Of Treason

Travis

   

      I tried so hard to ignore the agony pain my heart felt. I don't know how things could of gone so bad. She just flipped. How wrong my doing was to make her leave us.   

      The small space in my mind always told me I wasn't enough. That I was doing it wrong. That just maybe, just maybe. I was causing her more pain. Our bond wasn't enough to love. Our love was just too weak for her. 

      "Father always said our love is nothing if we're not the man our mate needed. That we had to be her all. Her wants, her needs, her desires, her home, her freedom, her all. Because if we are not. Another man will."  

      "Father only said that to expedited his own wrong doings. He cheated on his mate. He made himself seem like a man when no man would do such a thing to the woman he loves."  

      "Yet the woman I love just drove off with our heart in her hand. Not even a flinch of hesitation." I drop my head down.  

      "She'll come back. She loves us. Elizabeth wouldn't just leave us."

      "Malcolm. She needed more than love from us. We suffocated her and she left. It was too much. We fucked up."

      "No! It was their fault! They pushed her. We did right! And I'm not gonna give up! We can't give up!"

      "I'm not giving up. I just need to feel her again. Nothing seems real when she's gone. And when she left.. it felt like she was saying goodbye. I just, I want to.."

      I couldn't think straight. I want her so bad my body burns. I fought the rage of painful thoughts telling me she'll never come back because of who we are. We were a damage of rage. Blood fills our need. That rage was me. Did Elizabeth grew tolerance of us?

       I fought it all. Yet the other rage tells me to get up and search the fucking city and drag her back. Not only convince her but demonstrate how we can do better. Make it all worth her existence. Her love.

      Fuck the world for pulling her from me.

      After hours kneeling on the dirt road. I walked into the woods. I stayed there where I can smell her. I argue with Malcolm. We agree on strategies to bring her back. Carving in the dirt. Ways to make her believe we are the man she can love. The man she can spend her life forever with. We are not the failure she thinks.

      "I will burn this forest in flame. I'll start a all new pack. I will redeem our morals and claim our mate back. I'm not gonna live a world without her!"

      "We are gonna prove to Elizabeth that nothing matter unless she in it. That we are not some lesser kind. She'll be ours and want to be ours."

      "She won't leave our side when she's back!"

      I watch as the sky before me change from light to dark and back to light. I ordered Beta to round up the Deltas and Degrees to get her. There's still a threat. We have more eyes on us than ever. Someone could of trapped her at any moment. I am not losing Elizabeth before I prove to her our worth. I am not losing her at all.

      Hours goes by. No news yet. Nothing worth celebrating. My men had no leads. Even Beta had came up empty handed. She hasn't reach out to anyone.

      "She couldn't have just vanish!"

      "Why did we wait. Why the fuck did we sat here and not just go after her like we wanted!" I shouted to Malcolm.