I don't know if you will ever understand the
joy I feel when I go a day without eating. How miraculously happy and horrible I feel at the end of it all. Yes, I made it through another day without eating but my body feels like shit my head is killing me I feel nauseous constantly. I want to go to bed and sleep but I can't my headache is killing me. I don't know how to tell you how I feel both joy and sadness when I go a day without eating. How not eating for a day means I'll lose weight but it also means my hair is slowly falling out it also means that I will have low energy. That already suffering with depression I barely have any but when I don't eat it takes it all from me it's all drained just for the hopes that maybe I'll lose a couple pounds. Maybe I'll look like the girls on these magazines maybe I'll actually feel pretty if I just lose these last two more pounds. Maybe then I can be truly happy if I have the body I want.
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The live's I've lived
PoetryThis is a collection of poems and pieces of writing. That I have written over the last 2 years of my life. I've never been one to actually live. To take the risk. A lot of the things I have written are about things that have happened in my head. Or...
