The live's I've lived

Poem #42

I fear drugs and alcohol I fear that I will become an addict it is in my blood generations after generations alcoholism has affected my family in someway shape or form. I have watched as drugs ruined kids I knew so well. People in my town overdosing like it's nothing and never to be seen or heard from again. Once they enter that one house I think that house is haunted that house has some deranged way of pulling kids who are in trouble and keeping them there till there's nothing left of them. I watched as my best friends brother became an addict. I was the one who held her every night as she cried in my arms. I was the one there for her first hand I can't explain the feeling of watching this little girls life get ruined flipped upside down. Drugs and alcohol ruined him he became someone she doesn't recognize. He's been to jail multiple times he's overdosed multiple times. He's a nice kid I swear he's a nice kid it's the drugs that's all it is he's not bad I swear he's not bad he has one of the sweetest souls I have ever known. But these drugs have a hold on him a hold that is very hard to undo and he's tried he's tried really hard and I am proud of him for that and so is she. It's hard being there on the sidelines watching it all happen it's horrifying it scares me how drugs and alcohol can change a person so easily from being the sweetest person in the world to an abuser someone I don't recognize. I fear that's what will happen if I drink because that's all I've seen happen I fear addiction.