I have 12 self-help books sitting at my bedside table none of them have been opened since the day I bought them. I think I want to get better no I want to get better but I don't know if I want to put in the work. Is it a lot of work? getting better seems like it. It seems like people only want to talk about the depression when it's aesthetic not when I can't get out of bed not when I can't shower or even brush my teeth. I have hundreds of pictures I printed out with motivational quotes on them I'm taking them off my wall what is a motivational quote when there is nothing left to motivate. To make me move to make me do things. What is there left to motivate when I'm not even a full person what am I if not just a consumer who buys shit she will never use. Who is addicted to the aesthetic of self- love. The expensive skin care and the books. I think I want to get better but then what would I have to fix.
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The live's I've lived
PoetryThis is a collection of poems and pieces of writing. That I have written over the last 2 years of my life. I've never been one to actually live. To take the risk. A lot of the things I have written are about things that have happened in my head. Or...
