Poem #45

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I'll try to start a simple conversation with you
there's no warning signs there are no reasons for you to be in a bad mood there are no signs that you are in a bad mood. But when I start up a conversation I get yelled at. You for some reason like to take all your anger out on me and then act like that never happened like you didn't just call me the worst names in the world. Like you didn't just make me feel like shit for asking how you were. I guess that's just how it is right fuck how can I blame you when I let it happen. I let you yell and then I sit in silence until you're calm and I don't bring it up again. I zip my mouth shut I close it there's nothing to come out of my mouth. I can't open my mouth for some reason when you have your episodes, I can't say anything because if I do it escalates it gets physical. It can't get physical this time I'm not going to let it so instead I'll stay quiet my lips feel like they're glued shut my eyes can't even cry anymore. I will stay quiet I will let you yell and say what you need to say I will let you take all your anger out on me.

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