The lessons my parents unknowingly taught me.
They taught me how to keep quiet. They taught me that my voice does not matter that even in my own family I will constantly be talked over. They taught me how to sit in complete silence and be happy about that. They taught me that just because someone says they love you doesn't mean they do they taught me how to defer that. Growing up thinking I was the most loved person ever but did you really want to do all the things you did for me or did you just do them because you had to. Did you truly love me or did you just have to because I'm your daughter. You taught me that I was unlovable you taught me how to sense when someone doesn't love me. You taught me the difference between doing something for someone and doing something for someone because you want to. You taught me how to hate every last inch of my body every insult you ever called me still lives in my brain whether or not you remember calling me a selfish inconsiderate little bitch, a whore and a slut someone who will never make it they live on repeat in my brain those words will never leave. They are sewed into my existence into my brain. You taught me how to be angry how to hate the world how to have a random outburst for no reason. You taught me how to bottle up my emotions how no one truly wants to hear how I'm feeling. You taught me that I am insignificant that I truly do not matter you taught me how to constantly forgive someone you love. I will constantly forgive them whether or not they love me back whether or not they're sorry they taught me how strong my love is they taught me how much I will let people get away with.
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The live's I've lived
PoetryThis is a collection of poems and pieces of writing. That I have written over the last 2 years of my life. I've never been one to actually live. To take the risk. A lot of the things I have written are about things that have happened in my head. Or...
