Chapter Thirty-Five: How Could I Be So Stupid?

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          Jordan has ignored me all throughout dinner with Katya and I honestly don't know what to do. I know springing this onto her wasn't the best idea and I want to apologize for ultimately bringing a stranger into her house without having a proper conversation but she hasn't even looked at me. I thought we were fine but I guess not. I honestly didn't mean nor did I think this would be a big issue but once I got to thinking about it and I mean really thinking about it, I now know that I was wrong on so many levels. I was naive.

Katya had just made her way to the guest room for bed as Jordan began to gather all the dishes to put them in the dishwasher. I just observed her because I've never seen her mad before and I didn't want to set her off in any way so I just stayed seated, silently observing her.

Every dish she scrubbed seemed as if they all had a deadly disease on them that she was trying to get off with all her might. Even once they got clean she kept scrubbing. Her eyebrows were furrowed with anger and her lips were pursed in thought. She hadn't even noticed that I was still sitting at the kitchen table. The thing that scared me the most was how calm she was even though she was mad. I'm so used to people exploding or blowing up at me when they're angry with me but not Jordan.

Jordan was silent and I think that's worse.

"Can we talk, please?" I finally spoke up as she finished washing the last dish. My heart was pounding in anxiousness and I couldn't take the silence anymore.

Jordan froze before she took a deep breath and looked up at me with hardened eyes before they slowly softened. "I- I need an hour to think, Gio; I want to bring my best self to this talk and I can't do that right now."

I understood completely so I nodded my head respectfully at her request for space. "I understand, though whenever your ready to talk, just let me know." I sighed with sadness and disappointment at myself before I got up, pushed my chair in and headed upstairs to check on Katya.

The bedroom door was already open as I noticed a peacefully sleeping Katya already laid in the bed. I think I was so hung up on the fact that she reminded me of my younger self that I didn't stop to think about how this could affect my family, especially their safety. I mean I'm a Don, how could I so easily compromise my family's safety? I'm their protector and I can't have someone mess that up. I just got the family I've ever dreamed of and I'm not willing to lose them over a young girl that I truthfully don't even know.

I sighed in frustration as my muscles became tight. It was time that I own up to my mistakes as I know it's taking its toll on Jordan.

I went to Jordan and I's bedroom, taking a quick shower before I got in bed. My mind kept running on and on and I couldn't turn it off so I did what I always do when I need to vent. I called my twin sister, Valentina.

I took out my phone from the pocket of my shorts and dialed her contact. "Val?" I spoke as she answered the phone.

"Fratello [Brother]? What's wrong?" She asked. I felt bad because of how late it was but I always seem to call her at this time of night so I'm sure it's not much of an inconvenience. From hearing the way I sounded, she knew just from my voice that something was amiss so that's when I explained the whole situation with her from the very beginning to now.

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