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It's currently after three o'clock in the afternoon and I've been procrastinating on telling the girls about their father. I talked to my mom and she agreed that it was the right thing to do and tell the kids because they deserve to know their father especially because they've been more curious these days. I honestly think I'm just scared they'll forget about me because now they have their real blood family out there. I know it's a ridiculous fear but I also feel that it's valid. I mean, am I even ready to share them? For them to have interactions with other people besides my mom and I?
Another fear of mine is the fact that their father is the Capo of the Italian Mafia. I mean I've done my research on him and lets just say that there's not a lot of good things said about him. He's an emotionless, rich, and ruthless leader but many in his industry and other industries respect him somehow. The only reason why I know who he is and what he does is because of the private school I enrolled my kids in. It's one of the top schools not only in Italy but in the world and I want the best for my babies. Before you enroll your kid in that school, you must sign a contract stating that you know who is protecting that school and who runs it. I guess that just protects Giovanni in the long run in case someone were to ever think about suing him. You're probably thinking that I'm crazy for signing the contract and letting my girls attend a school run by the mafia but believe it or not, it's one of the safest schools in the whole country of Italy and my kids safety is a top priority of mine, especially if I have the money to do so.
Although I never imagined myself raising children connected to the mafia, it's something I never really had a choice in deciding. Regardless of Giovanni's job or situation, I sincerely believe Giovanni will be a good father, but mostly, I hope he will keep them safe while or if they are ever with him. My intention is to be the best mother I can be for them and hope Mr. Milani will accept them and become the best father he can to them as well.
It was a little later in the day and I didn't want to delay the news any longer because otherwise it would eat me up inside, hiding something like this from them. After I let them play for a while in their playroom upstairs I called them down to the living to finally talk. I understand how it feels to not have a father figure in your life, therefore I know that they must feel like something is missing from their hearts, so I know I'm doing the right thing and telling them.
"Are we in trouble mamá?" Bay asked as both her and Bellamy sat on the couch opposite from where I'm sitting. They held each others hand, seeking comfort from the other.
"No, not at all. I just wanted to talk to you guys about something important." I spoke gently.
"What about?" Bellamy asked as she tilted her head curiously.
"You guys remember the talk we had last night?" I began.
"About our papá?" Bay inquired as she took a quick glance at her sister.
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Double The Love
Novela JuvenilJordan, the well-known painter, had always desired to have children. What happens when she encounters a set of twins that completely change her life? Giovanni Milani, the leader of the most powerful mafia in the country. What happens when Jordan an...