Straykids OS (Book)

ghost of you

Ship: Hyunho
Triggers/Warnings: character death,  mention of: Suicide thoughts, depressions, selfharm, mpreg

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In the quiet of the night, Minho traced the ghostly memories of Hyunjin that lingered in every corner of their shared space, the echoes of their love haunting his every breath. In the soft glow of the moonlight, Minho's heart ached with the absence of Hyunjin's warm presence beside him, the shadows of their past love casting a bittersweet spell over his every thought. He closed his eyes, hoping to find solace in the memories that whispered to him in the stillness of the night, yearning for a love that now existed only in fragments of time. 

Hyunjin was gone. Forver. He was hoping so much that they would find him.. alive. That he coud hug him, kiss him and tell him how much he loves him.. but all he gets are memories he will never forget. How they danced through their house, laughed for hours, sang their lungs out to songs they both loved. How Minho wanted to marry the boy... but know.. know everything seemed so.. so useless, like everything that once made sense doesn't do it now. 

His best friends are worried about him, he know it, but he cant let go of the love of his life, not when he wanted to propose to him on the day Hyunjin disappeared, to tell him how much he loved him and wanted to spend his life with the younger one. He had so much hope, that the Police officers would bring him his Baby back.. but that never happend.

Instead.. he needed to hear that they found him dead.. that he killed himself because he couldn't take this life on this earth anymore. He wrote a letter to Minho, but he still didn't read it, he couldn't, he just couldn't. It was to painful to know that his love wasn't with him anymore. He couldn't handle it but he also didn't wanted his friends with him. He wanted nothing then to die himself to be with his love together again.

But Minho knew Chan, he knew that if he himself didn't let them in, the older one would come in anyway, he dont care how. And that was exactly the case, the boys stromed into his room and hugged him, they didn't say anything and just hugged him, that was the breaking point for Minho and he began to cry. He cried until he passed out in the arms of his best friends, they stayed with him the whole time, and even read the letter for him, because he couldn't and didn't had the courage to it. And after the last sentence, that Hyunjin wrote, he cried again not understanding why he didn't noticed how bad his angle was feeling.

Dear Minho,

My love.. if you will read that.. I'm probably gone.. and I'm sorry.. you have to belive me.. I didn't wanted to go.. but.. I-I just didn't know what to do.. It was to much, everyone hated me, no matter where I went they all looked at me like I was some alien, like I didn't belong in this world and I just couldn't take it anymore... then.. then I started to get depressed.. started to hurt myself because I thought it would make things better.. but it just got worse.. the cuts got deeper.. and the thoughts darker.. 

I couldn't talk to you.. I.. I found the ring you bought.. I.. You wanted to marry me? Why me? I'm not even that great of a person honey.. You wouldn't be happy with me.. I cried for hours knowing what you wanted to do that, but I already had my decision.. my decision to leave... I'm so so sorry... 

I-I knew I could have talked to you or even the others, like Channie or Seungminnie or even Lixie but I couldn't... the only thought I had was to.. just die.. to leave and finally be free.. Baby.. please do me favor okay? Stay happy, like you were with me! Please! I cant handle to know that you probably lock yourself in our house and suffer there on your own! So please, please let the others help you, for me my love.. do it at least for me, okay? 

I also know that we never ended our relationship but please dont stop looking for someone who will love you, go and look for this person for me okay? Create a family just like we wanted it to do... please just be happy with someone else. I will never leave you, I will always stay in your heart, I will watch you from up there and I want you to smile, to walk to a kindergarten and take your baby home with this freaking beautiful smile of yours okay?

Please stay happy for me Lee Minho.

I will always love you! This wont change, not even after my death...

In love,

Hwang Hyunjin

And again, everyone was crying, but Minho the most. He couldn't understand why Hyunjin suffered alone all this years.. he didnt understood the people who did this to his pretty boy. But he, he wanted to try and be happy for him, make a family.. but before he can do that.. he needs time.. a lot of time..

6 years later

Minho was holding his promise with his first and ever love Hyunjin. He found his next love in Seungmin, and he was happy with the puppy like boy, yes he still missed Hyunjin and all, but he knew that the younger boy would be happy to know that Seungmin was pregnant with their little babyboy.. and yes its a boy.. without Minho knwoing.. Seungmin already knew a name for the baby... and he would bring his Husband to tears after he confessed to the midwife what the little boys name would be.

It happend at 9 in the morning. Seungmins water burst and they drove to the hospital where only minutes later Seungmin was lying in his first contractions. Minho stayed with him the whole time, talked softly to him, and after hours.. hours of hearing Seungmin scream in pain they heard the crying of the little boy. They both had tears in their eyes while looking at the litte bundle, and thats when the name came to light.

"His, his name is Hyunjin." Seungmin said with a proud grin and tears in his eyes. Minho's face fell first until he burst into tears and turned away from his husband and everyone else. "Lino.. come here.. please.. you dont have to cry alone..." Seungmin said, while now also his tears where rolling down his cheeks. Minho walked to his exhausted husband and hugged him. "Thank you.. thank you so much.." He whispered and kissed the forehead of his big baby.

After baby Hyunjin was dressed and everything, Minho could hold him, while Seungmin was sleeping from the exhaustion of the birth. He looked at the little boy with so much love, just like he looked at his first love. The baby was holding one of his daddys fingers with a firm grip, feeling that his dada was kind of emotional.

Seungmin who woke up hours later, smiled brightly when he saw how happy Minho looked. How much love he had in his eyes while staring at the sleeping baby he was holding. He knew he did the right thing, he knew it was a new begin for Minho now, and he knew that Hyunjin would be proud and even prouder to know that their baby had the same name like him. 

They wont forget him, never. 

They will see him in the little boy in Minhos arms.

the end.

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I'M DONE!!!

Now its your turn to cry and suffer!!! I will NEVER EVER right something like that ever again!!!

I'm out, I need to calm down!!

Bye bye.

Tayla♡