Straykids OS (Book)

Want me gone pt.2

Ship: Felix X Stray Kids
Triggers/Warnings: angsty, sad 

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With one last message check, he turned off his phone completely and put it in his backpack and just enjoyed the flight to Australia. 

meanwhile in the Dorm

The seven boys woke up one by one and went to the kitchen. Minho stood at the stove preparing breakfast while Chan put coffee out for the coffee drinkers. The last ones to stumble into the kitchen were none other than Hyunjin and surprisingly, Jisung. "Good morning." They all muttered over each other until there was silence again. 

Nobody noticed that a person was missing, yes, it was the first few days of their well-deserved break, but they knew that Felix would usually always be at the stove with Minho or at least in the kitchen with the older one. Seungmin set the table, even though it seemed strange to him since it would normally have been set for a long time, he pushed aside the thought that something was wrong and as soon as he was done setting the table, Minho put a whole plate full of pancakes on the table. 

They all sat down and started eating until Jeongin looked around and noticed the empty chair between Seungmin and Jisung. "Where's Lix?" He asked and everyone looked at him. "He's probably still asleep Innie." Chan said and looked at his younger boyfriend, Jeongin just nodded weakly and ate... more or less just picked at his food. The six started talking among themselves and Jeongin took this opportunity to sneak away and look for the missing boy. He ran from the kitchen upstairs to where their rooms were and headed straight for Felix's. 

He knocked a few times and when he didn't get an answer, he opened the door quietly, thinking that Felix was really still asleep. But what he found when he opened the door was not the sleeping figure of his boyfriend, but a bed made up and a letter. 

He walked to the bed and took the letter, he opened the envelope and took out the note inside. He took a deep breath, opened it and started reading. 

Hey... 

I don't really know where to start... so I'll just start with a simple question: What... What did I do wrong? 

Why I ask that... well... for a few weeks now there's only been the seven of you doing anything, during our preparations for our last comeback you didn't even look at me anymore and since then you've just left without me... yeah, yeah, more or less you have me alone left in one of the vans. You treated me like a piece of trash. 

Why? What have I done? I tried to please you all, listened to you when you needed an open ear, cheered you up when you were feeling bad, even if I had a thousand things going through my head. I've tried to be there for all of you, to help you wherever I can so that you aren't so stressed. And the thanks for that is that I had to hear how shitty I am and that it's best to leave the band because I don't contribute anything to the band and I'm just in the way?

And yes I fucking overheard your conversation and it destroyed me so much. How come you think like that? What has changed over the years? I just don't understand it, but I will... I did you a favor and left... I just need some distance from you and everything that happened. Don't look for me, don't call or write me... I'll come back when I think it's right and then I'll tell you my decision whether I'll stay or whether I'll leave the band according to your wishes.

 I.. I don't understand what has changed from one day to the next that you treat me like that.. I cried myself to sleep every day because I don't understand what the hell is suddenly going on with you!! But that doesn't matter now anyway...

for now it's a goodbye...

next time it could be a farewell... 

With love,
Lee Felix 

Jeongin burst into tears. He ran out of Felix's room with the note in his hand and down into the kitchen to the others, without waiting for them to pay attention to him, he shouted "HE'S GONE!! FELIX IS NOT HERE!!" The other six looked at the youngest, who was standing in the middle of the kitchen, completely distraught and crying, with a letter in his hand and looking at them with a broken expression.

Seungmin was the first to get up and walked towards the younger, he took him in his arms where Jeongin burst into tears again. Hyunjin stood up followed by the others and took the piece of paper from the younger boy and read it out loud so that everyone could hear what Felix wrote. 

At the end, Hyunjin looked at the three eldest with tears in his eyes and the only thing he said was a simple "We fucked up.." And then the first tears rolled down his cheeks, Jisung ran into Hyunjin's arms and so they cried both together as well as Seungmin and Jeongin. 

"Channie... w-what do we do now... he hates us and I can understand why... the bad thing is that we believed those rumors about him instead of trusting what we knew. We know Felix so well and yet we believed all this nonsense." Jeongin said through gritted teeth, still crying. 

"Shhh... shhh... I'm going to talk to JYP, he should put us on an indefinite break for personal reasons. We have to sort this out because like Hyunjin said, we really screwed up!" Chan says and took Jeongin and Seungmin in his arms, Minho and Changbin did the same with Jisung and Hyunjin. 

After the four had calmed down and Minho and Changbin took it upon themselves to distract the four, Chan ran off to make a phone call to JYP. And after an hour and a half of explaining, JYP agreed and Chan went back into the living room where he found the four of them sleeping together surrounded by Minho and Changbin. 

tbc.

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part 3? Yes? No?

There is one things i wanted to tell y'all. First of all, i will cross write 'scared little kitty' and also will cross posting it to this book here just so yk. I sadly couldn't show you the cover but so i can surprise you hehe.

Also i'm sorry for yesterday.. i didn't had the time to write and publish said chapter, i hope you understand that all hahah.

Have a nice day, night or whatever.

Bye bye.

Tayla ♡