[On Hold] I'm a what?! (That Time I got reincarnated as a slime x Male Reader)

Chapter 38: Brighter Days

I was always the problem. Always causing trouble for Rimuru despite knowing he was only ever there to help. Even when we were just [REDACTED] and Satoru. It was always like he could see a part of me that I had accepted as myself, like he knew something had crawled under my skin and was fighting to be the one who wore it.

You were never the problem, Rimuru never wanted to help. He wanted to control you, he stole your light when he should have let you take the stage- if he wanted to help you like he rambled on about then he would have let you rule. He would have saved you.

I didn't need saving! He's only a human the same as me. It's not his job to save me, it's my own. It's my own cause and effect; he was kind enough to help me, he had no obligation too and yet everything he did was always to keep me safe yet I never repaid him, I made his life miserable and stole all the things that could have been his because I wanted him to myself as if he was a trophy. I blame you for that.

You did need saving! He should have been the one to help you, he should have done more. Don't blame us, it was never our fault! It was his, all his. He should have been the one to help us, he should have been the one to pull us out the dark place that you always managed to put us in.

I needed to stand on my own, Leave Rimuru out of this, he did what he could but we have our own will and are able to make our own choices; we chose to rely on him and dump everything on him and poor Rimuru held it up for us!

You are a fool, you are the one this story is about and yet you try fight me? I am the one controlling the body, I am the one controlling the path yet you want to make this about you. I will not let you, Rimuru will have to go; Rimuru will have to pay! 

I will not let you!

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Just when I was at my lowest point, battling with myself and my own mind. I felt a hand on my shoulder, cold and soft as if it wasn't human flesh. Rimuru pulled my face up to meet his, his soft and gentle eyes holding care and passion once again as he could see what resided under my skin, what I shared this mask with. 

" It's over now (Y/N), we can patch things up. The darkness in your eyes is finally gone so I know who's behind that mask again ", Rimuru said, his voice was sweet and soothing as if his breath was made from lullabies. He helped me up, my shaking legs barely managing to stand as he lead me back to my seat and helped me lay my heavy head down on the table to rest as the room compacted again and shrunk in size, my breathing was heavy and my eyes felt heavy but I could still hear the discussions going on in the background.

The demon lord's meeting, it wasn't very eventful and I fell asleep half way through but from what I did hear until my eyes closed was that they acknowledged us as demon lords and would allow us to join, they also went over the plan involving Clayman and Milim's big reveal of never being controlled. I remember waking up a few minutes ago to gentle nudges but my head still feels to heavy to lift, I hear a voice talking maybe I should pay attention to it?

" Hey (Y/N), you awake? I'm gonna assume you are, I'm glad you're back- it's been lonely without you and having the other thing in control, you were out for a few months back there must have felt weird again huh but not as bad as those two years in college where you were in the backseat. I hope we can talk again, maybe you can form an alliance with Tempest and we can go back to being how we use too... especially now of all times, I need you more than ever"

I could tell who the voice was, it made me lift my head as finally I had enough strength thanks to it; I was right, looking at the blue hair and beautiful eyes made me feel refreshed more than ever; I couldn't help myself and jumped onto Rimuru, wrapping my arms around him which seemed to make him wiggle in embarrassment and squeal with an equal amount of excitement.

" It felt less real than ever, I tried pushing back through when my body found a strange underground temple in a tower but my own mind told me I wasn't ready yet. It's been stressful but once again, I can hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you ", I practically screamed the words locked away in my heart, lathering a barrage of kisses onto Rimuru's face which made him giggle slightly with excitement as he held his small arms around me and pushed his chest against mine allowing him to lean back a bit.

" I forgot how lovey dovey this side of you was, I like it more than ever now I've been stuck without it, ever since that day in the cave; I've missed this ", Rimuru whispered with passion lining his soft words like a cloud's silver lining. He pulled me closer and began to bury his head in my neck and finally relax his shoulders that were held tense at his sides.

" You mentioned you need me now more than ever, you just miss me or something else going on? Another war? ", I asked with more alarm than I'd like to admit but once he looked at me and managed to pull away with a smirk and melodic hum, I managed to witness the best thing in my life and something I want to see again and again until I die, if I relived my life; it would just be that moment. Rimuru leaned back away, his body facing away from mine as he turned his head with an eyes half closed sort of cheeky smile and spun his body with the momentum, my mouth dropped and those marvellous words came from his mouth:

" No, Because this baby will need a dad.... "