Luce di Stella • Kenan Yildiz

Chapter 47: Always Been Yours

🎶 Never Really Over — Katy Perry 🎶

Kenan POV

"I'm back" I announced groggily as I closed the apartment door behind me. We had won against PSG, with another goal shot by me. But I wished that the game would have lasted forever instead of having to return back here. I threw my backpack onto the bench by the coat rack in the entrance, but stopped when I noticed something looking different to when I left.

I slowly turned around and started noticing other things: the apartment looked... emptier and some photos were missing. I startled completely when I saw the last person I expected here, sitting on the sofa, typing something on her phone.
"Fuck, you gave me a heart attack" I panted and Bibi looked up at me with a smile on her lips. "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked as I stepped closer to her.
"Waiting for you" she replied nonchalantly and shrugged.

My eyes wandered around the room again.
"Where's Dilara?" I asked.
"Gone" she simply replied.
"Gone?" I asked confusedly and furrowed my eyebrows. "How?" I added.
"Cost me enough" she scoffed. "Girl wanted 30 mill... Had to sell my private island in the Caribbean for that" she chuckled and my eyes popped out of my head.
"You gave her 30 million euros?" I asked, just to make sure I had understood correctly.
"Yeah..." she replied. "Though I would have given her any amount..." she added quietly.

I walked closer and hugged her tightly. I buried my head in the crook of her neck and took a deep breath as I closed my eyes. This whole situation was a complete mess but right now, I didn't care. Because I had her. Nothing mattered when she was around, it was our world and the others just lived in it. I pulled away and took her head into my hands.
"We can be together now" I whispered and kissed her front, but she shuffled away from me.
"No" she sighed.

"No? No what? Why?" I asked confusedly.
"We can't be together, Kenan. Not now" she replied and pressed her lips together.
"Why else would you have sent Dilara away then?" I asked.
"We need time apart, Kenan... Dean and I just broke up and the statement about Dilara and your separation will be out soon and people will inevitably start talking" she replied. "We can't just play happy couple now, not when we build our happiness on other people's misery."

I ran my hand through my hair, but knew she was right. Everyone would tear us apart if we just walked out on the streets smooching each other's faces off.
"You're right... So... What's the plan?" I sighed.
"There's no plan, Kenan. We go our separate ways and see when and how life brings us together again. But we need to check our own consciences if we are ready for each other again, if... we really want this. We have to do it right this time around... there's too much at stake" she replied and leaned her head onto my chest. I wrapped my arms around her to give her comfort and reassurance.

"You're right. We will do that. And when we're ready we'll do it right" I confirmed her thoughts. She looked up at me and smiled. Our eyes met and I felt the familiar tingling in my body, making me smile too.
"I love you, Bibi" I whispered.
"I love you too, Kenan" she whispered back and pressed a kiss onto my lips. But I didn't get enough, so, when she pulled away, I pulled her back close again to kiss her more. She giggled and pushed my chest away again after a bit.
"So much for staying away" she chuckled.
"If I disagreed with you, I would have thrown you on that bed of mine in the bedroom over there already" I joked and she swatted me away as she slightly blushed.

"I don't want to see you walking out that door" I pouted as she grabbed her purse.
"And I don't want to stay in this apartment where you shared a part of your life with another woman" she sighed.
"Ok, that point goes to you" I chuckled.
"I always win" she replied and winked at me.
"That's nice, but the truth is that... you're the ultimate prize" I said as I grabbed her hips and positioned her in front of me again. "And I'm not saying this to objectify you. I'm saying this because I know what it means to lose you - and I never want to go through that again" I said seriously.

"You won't... But we need to focus on ourselves for a while now. We both just got out of relationships and... need to heal first, to really be ready for each other again" she said and caressed my cheek.
"You're right... But it's torture for me to see you and knowing that you're not mine" I whispered before planting a kiss on the sweet spot behind her ear.
"Kenan..." she sighed and looked me in my eyes. "I've always been yours" she said and I closed my eyes to memorise those words. My little friend down there also found them pretty exciting, but I gritted my teeth to try and calm myself down - now wasn't the moment.

"Fine. I'll focus on playing and scoring - and since I won't be able to show it to the world, I'm telling you now: every goal will be for you" I said and gave her a smug smile.
"I only need one goal from you: the winning one in the Champions League final" she said and raised her index finger at me, making us both laugh.
"If I do that, I want a kiss for that at the after-party, in some hidden bathroom stall" I teased her.
"We'll see about that" she replied but I knew that I was definitely getting that kiss, maybe even more. Images of her on her knees, blowing me, flooded my mind, but I quickly pushed them away again.

"You alright?" she asked and tilted her head.
"Yeah, yeah... perfectly fine" I replied hastily.
"You just imagined me giving you a blow job, didn't you?" she laughed and I turned dark red probably.
"Sorry... I..." I stammered, but had to laugh.
"You're unbelievable" she laughed and shook her head. "I'll see you around Yildiz" she said and punched my chest softly as she turned around to leave.

I followed her with a smile playing on my lips.
"This reminds me of how our relationship started" I chuckled, remembering how hard she had tried to keep me away, but I never gave up. I expected a sassy comeback from her, but she turned around to me as she had her hand already on the doorknob.
"Me too. Let's try and get a happier end this time around" she said and bit her lip before leaning in and pressing a soft goodbye kiss onto my cheek.