Forevermore /// Taylor Swift

Family

Havyns pov
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Fear crept through me as I watched Taylor squeal with joy, heading over to give Travis a hug. His scary look turned into a smile as he caught her eye, I saw how much they loved each other in that moment. I knew he'd have a say in whether we stay or go. I internally panicked, knowing I was the only one awake. I stood awkwardly as Taylor and Travis hugged, wanting to be anywhere else.

"Travis, this is Havyn." She smiled, excitement filled her eyes as she turned to me, expectedly. My anxiety hit as I felt my throat slowly start closing over. She saw the fear in my face and came over to me, squeezing my hand to reassure me. I wanted to make a good impression for Taylor's sake, but my anxiety had other ideas. I counted my breaths in my head, hoping it'll pass so I could at least say hi to the poor man. I remembered his life has now completely changed as well, he now has three kids in his life that he never asked for. I wondered how he was coping with that. That sounded much scarier than meeting Taylors boyfriend, meeting my mom's boyfriend.

"Hi." I mumbled as it came out as a whisper. Thanking god I was able to speak at all, knowing my voice could've been silenced by my anxiousness.

"Hey, I've heard so much about you," he beamed at me, "you two are identical."

I cringed a little, sometimes I forgot that Taylor was my biological mother and that she's not trying to adopt all of us, just Theo and Maisie. I was safe, unless Travis convinced Taylor to give me up again.

I picked at my elbow, wondering where to go from here. Taylor was talking to him, filling the silence that came from me. It was obvious she missed him a lot. I just lent against her slightly, seeking any sort of comfort from this new change in our lives. She rubbed my back, before turning around to see Maisie attached to her leg. Thanking god one of them was up to take the attention away from me.

Taylor's pov
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Travis was finally here, I hadn't realised how much I had missed him. He looked amazing and greeted the kids with love that I knew he would have for them.

Havyn was definitely nervous and anxious about the entire situation, I knew she'd love Travis but it would take sometime. I allowed Havyn to try and settle her fears by being her physical support beam to lean on, I just rubbed her back as Travis and I caught up on the month we had missed out on. Until, I felt someone's little arms cling around my leg. My eyes met Maisie's beautiful brown eyes, I picked her up and set her on my hip.

"Maisie, this is Travy." I smiled, talking to her. She was still so sleepy, resting her head on my chest. She gave him a small wave, "hello."

Travis smiled, taking it all in. These were my kids as scary as that sounded. My life evolves around them now and I love that, being their mom has brought me so much joy. I just hoped Travis could see that and share it with me. I hoped the three of them let him as well.

I noticed Havyn had gone to wake Theo up gently, he was mumbling in his sleep not happy about the wake. Maisie had fallen back asleep in my arms, I smiled at Travis.

"I go away for a month and you've got three kids?" He joked, laughing, "they're amazing Tay."

I kissed his cheek again, slightly swaying with Maisie to let her sleep a little while longer. Theo was now up and staring at Travis cautiously, the same way he stared at me the first day I met him.

"Hey Theo, meet Travis. He's going to play football with you all the time." I exaggerated my words as I spoke to him, trying to make it fun and exciting.

"Can we play now?" Theo yawned as he said it.

Travis chuckled, "not right now bud, how about tomorrow? We've got to support Taylor tonight." He crouched down to Theo.

"Okay, can I stay with you?" Havyn and I both gave each other a look, not expecting Theo to take to Travis so fast. Expecting him to be skittish and fearful. I was glad he was attempting to be brave towards Travis, hoping it would continue for at least one of them.

I sat back down in my chair with Maisie on my lap, I just stroked her hair gently. Taking in the moment with her, she was the cutest little baby. Her dark hair was long and straight, almost reaching her bum. I kept her close as my stylist started doing my hair again. I checked on Travis with the other two, Havyn looked slightly uncomfortable just sitting on the couch as Travis and Theo wittered away about football. I noticed that Travis kept trying to include Havyn in the conversation, obviously wanting to get to know her. Although she wasn't really having it, she looked almost zoned out and I knew that was her trauma response to almost everything.

I rested my cheek on top of Maisie's head, wishing Havyn would let Travis in. Knowing it's going to take time, but she's the most amazing person once you get to know her. Maisie moaned softly, stirring in her sleep. I glanced at her two brown orbs staring back at me.

"Hey Maisie Moo." I smiled, brushing my nose against hers.

"Is Travy like you?" She whispered, not losing my eye contact. It took me a minute to understand what she meant, until I realised she meant like me. She meant was he kind and comforting, what a normal parent should be to a child.

I nodded, "he's even better." I kissed her nose as she beamed at me.

"I love you, Tay." She snuggled back into me, I rubbed her back. Seeing Havyn looking at us, watching the conversation. I knew she wondered why her siblings didn't have as many issues as she did, but she protected them from it all so well. Wishing I could take all this pain away from her, I knew I couldn't and I had to let her heal in her own time.

I carried Maisie over to them after my hair and make up was finished. Sitting next to Travis with Maisie on my lap, I smiled looking at the four of us on the couch. Patting the seat beside me for Havyn. She thought about the move for a moment, before accepting and sitting next to me. I wrapped one arm around her in a comfort way, listening in on the conversation. Enjoying the company of the family I had slowly created.

I felt Havyns head on my shoulder, noticing her leg bouncing gently. I knew she was having an inner panic about everything, so much had changed and happened in the last 24hours and she needed to let her systems adjust. I kissed the side of her head, whispering, "I've got you." Hoping she could relax a bit before I go on stage, leaving them with Travis. I rested my head on hers, directing my attention to the other two. Who were talking to Travis as if they've known him all their lives, showing me how much they trusted me in who I bring into their lives. I caught Travis' eye, he smiled wrapping an arm around Theo to include him more. I saw Theo's eyes light up more, feeling seen and loved.

I took in the silence of everyone sitting together, all of my favourite people. I smiled, knowing I wouldn't change a thing about this. This is my family and we're meant to stick together.

/// heyyy sorry for the long wait! Travis is finally here, what do you think? How will they cope with him without Taylor?///