Forevermore /// Taylor Swift

Run

Havyns pov
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I walked up towards a huge building that looked like hogwarts. Taylor was at my side, holding my hand tightly. We were all worried about this day, wondering how I'd cope at a new school. I don't think it helped when I had a panic attack last night, making Taylor stay with me all night. It really showed me that they didn't need my extra stress that I seemed to bring to the family. Taylor has never complained about me but sometimes I can tell she's tired too, which makes me feel horrible.

That's why I came up with this plan, little did they know. They weren't picking me up from school today.

"You ready?" Taylor squeezed my hand to get my attention.

I nodded, knowing I was going to miss her so much. I wasn't doing this for me. I was doing it for all of them, so Theo and Maisie can have undivided love and attention on them. They can grow up happy and loved. I fear it was too late for me.

We stopped at the top of the steps, "I'll see you at pick up, okay?" Taylor looked like she was about to cry. She was a mom dropping her daughter off at school on her first day, something she never experienced when I was little.

"Okay." I just hugged her, thinking I'd want to be able to remember this comfort and love when I was alone later on today. I breathed in her scent, she smelt of strawberries. I was trying not to let a tear slip, wanting to stay with her forever but I knew this was for the best.

She pulled back from our hug, cupping my face in her hands.

"You're going to do amazing, Havie." She smiled sadly.

I just gave her a small smile back as she wrapped me in a hug again, before allowing me to walk in by myself. I turned around to see her giving me a small wave.

I made it to reception and was greeted by a tall brunette woman with thick rimmed glasses, "hello!"

I smiled, "I'm Havyn, I'm new."

"I'll get your timetable for you now."

I nodded, taking a seat and scanning the hallway. Everything was massive here, even the chairs my feet didn't touch the floor. I looked up to see the same receptionist standing holding my timetable.

"I'll take you to your first class." She gave me a warm smile. I nodded and followed her quickly. As we entered the classroom, it went silent and all the heads turned towards us. I felt my anxiety become on high alert as the teacher introduced me to everyone.

"Hi I'm Mr Sullivan." He smiled as he pointed to a desk at the back for me, I just smiled at him. Thinking I couldn't speak due to my anxiety, I knew my voice would be squeaky.

I decided to just stare straight ahead so I didn't make eye contact with anyone. My knee was bouncing slightly just at the thought of what I was planning later. It definitely took away some of the anxiousness of school.

"Hey." I heard a whisper, I turned to my left to see a mousy looking, brown haired girl staring at me. She looked like an older Maisie, which brought slight comfort.

"Hi." I mumbled.

"I'm Ella," she smiled, "you should stay with me today, I think we've the same classes." She pointed to my timetable.

"Yeah, sure," I smiled at her, glad that I wouldn't be getting lost, "I'm Havyn."

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Ella and I stuck together throughout the morning periods of class, slowly getting to know each other. She seemed lovely, much different to my old friends but was that a bad thing ?

"So there's three of us in our group. Me, Lola and Elliot." She smiled as we headed to the canteen, "and now, you!"

I smiled back at her, still unsure on what to say to new people. We sat down, obviously waiting on her friends. I nervously picked at my sandwich that Taylor had made for me last night, I did offer to do it myself but she insisted. I noticed a little note in my sandwich bag,