Carina:
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I've been so busy lately, I've had so much going on the last couple weeks and it's starting to hit me.
I can feel it in my body and I feel like I want to sleep for the next month and believe me I would if I could.
Good news is I haven't got work or anything planned tomorrow and I got off work early today so I got a couple hours to just relax.
Maya is working in the office downstairs, she didn't have work today but still had some paperwork to finish so she's been in there since before I've got home which was about an hour ago.
I just finish my shower that I so desperately needed and now I feel like a new women.
A woman with the darkest bags under their eyes.
I need to sleep.
Sleep is all that's been through my head all day.
So that's where I'm at, laying in bed going to try and sleep.
It's still early but a little nap won't harm anyone, not like it would be my problem anyways if it did.
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It's now been half an hour and I'm still awake, every part of my body is craving sleep but sleep just doesn't feel the same clearly.
As much as I want to sleep right now I decided to get up, I have a blanket draped over my shoulder that I got from the bottom of the bed.
I made my way downstairs almost falling down while doing so due to my leg giving out but I caught myself just in time.
I slowly walked a couple feet down the hallway to a closed door which was mine and Maya's office.
But for some reason I hesitated.
I went to knock and I hesitate.
As much as I want to leave her be and let her carry on with her work, I couldn't just walk back upstairs when all I want..... all I need is Maya.
I've missed her.
I've missed her so much..... I just want a little bit of her with me and if this is the only way I'll get it right now so be it.
So I knocked...... four time to be exact.
Come in. I heart faintly and I open the door.
Hiya baby, you don't have to knock.... This is your home to. She says with a smile.
I didn't say anything instead I walked over to her and silently sat on her lap.
You look nice and cozy, have you been sleeping? She asked
I tried....... But I missed you. I say
I feel like I haven't seen you..... haven't heard your voice in so long I just...... I need to be with you. I say emotionally.
Okay, that's okay. She says
Just then I let out a sniffle and I noticed I have tears rolling down my cheeks and I know it's from built up stress and anxiety from everything.
Hey..... what's wrong baby? Maya asked.
She stopped working as soon as I stepped into the room and she has her arms wrapped protectively around me as I have my head on her shoulder buried into her neck just soaking in her sent.
N-Nothing...... it's just everything from the last couple weeks, I've been so busy I haven't been able to let myself feel just a tiny bit, I've been stress and anxious and lonely all because I have so much going on all in one go..... and... and...... it just gets to much...... and I've missed you. I say to her
Ohhh baby, you should've called me when things got too much for you to handle, I......
I didn't have any time, there's always one thing after another and all I want is to sleep...... just for 5 minutes but I can't..... I can't sleep but I'm so tired but a part of me feels like I need to be doing something...... ahhhh actually, I think I'm going to go try sleep again. I say and I start to get up.
I didn't want to but I need to...... I need sleep so bad.
Wait, stay.
You just said you can't sleep when you tried so stay here and see if you can sleep here. Maya suggested.
You're busy..... I.....
No, none of that..... you said you missed me and maybe you can't sleep because your body knows I'm here, in the house so maybe this is what you need to be able to rest, just a little bit of comfort. She says and I didn't argue I laid back in the same position I was in before.
You should take a couple days off, your body needs rest..... proper rest and your mind needs it as-well, we both can tell. Maya said
I can't..... the O.B floor is running low on staff and I have Jo who still needs a-bit more help. I say and I can feel myself stressing out over the thought of it.
Baby, you're worn out..... you've been going 100 miles for the last two weeks, you need to rest baby otherwise you're going to get really poorly my love. She says
I have tomorrow off. I say
Okay...... I'm home tomorrow as-well, so tomorrow is going to be a relax day, we are going to do absolutely nothing, you can sleep all day for all I care but you are not doing anything. She made clear and I just nod feeling the tiredness taking over.
Just sleep for now, I'll finish up here and we can cuddle later. She says
Ok. I say happily.
At this point I've taken the blanket from over my shoulder and laid it over me because the office is a bit cold.
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Maya:
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Carina's been out like a light for the last hour.
I've just finished with my last report and turned my computer off and just leaned back into the chair.
Carina's been working her socks off these last couple weeks and I can tell it's catching up to her.
She needs to slow it down a bit otherwise she will get sick and she's not the nicest when she's sick, I mean no one like it when there not well but Carina can get violent with her words, but she's getting better at it....... Slowly.
Well, Last time she was sick she didn't throw a spatula at anyone so that's progress if you ask me.
Don't ask me about the other time because I've gotten close to getting her an exoticism and don't get me started when it's her time of the month.
I don't know what it is and a part of me doesn't want to, I'm just happy I'm in her hood side most of the time.
But anyways I'm just sat here letting her sleep because I know how much she needs it and how much she needs to just be with me.
That's one thing I adore about mine and Carina's relationship, that we're able to find comfort and security in being with one another , Carina being able to sleep in silence but being with me brings me so much happiness.
Ever though she was exhausted and wanted to go to sleep she couldn't because she was alone,
make me feel so happy because it wouldn't be good if it was the other way round now.
I'm just playing with her hair that's draped over her shoulder falling down to her chest, her hair has gone really long and it's so pretty especially when she brings her curls out which she doesn't like but I love them and always encourages her to have her curls.
So I'm just going to sit here while she rest so I don't disturb her but I will have to cut this short soon because I do need to run to the store soon but for now I'm where I meant to be.
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I don't know 🤷♀️🤷♀️
Lmk what you think and if you have any suggestions
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