C+J•G~Drabbles!

☆Restless☆

TW: insomnia, depression, self hate and insecurities and low self esteem

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Johnnie is tossing and turning in his bed with his boyfriend, Carrington sleeping beside him. He just couldn't get comfortable.

Carrington had been sleeping peacefully, until he felt Johnnie's restlessness. He cracked an eye open, letting out a soft yawn before speaking."Can't sleep, huh?"

Johnnie sighed. He stopped moving. His back facing Carrington. "Sorry that i woke you up.."

Carrington scooted closer to Johnnie, wrapping his arms around his waist from behind.

"It's okay, don't worry about it. What's wrong?"He nuzzled his face into the crook of Johnnie's neck, his breath warm against his skin.

Johnnie lets out another sigh. He didn't say anything. He just stared at the wall across the room.

Carrington noticed Johnnie's silence and the fact that he wasn't saying anything. He gently squeezed his waist, a sign of reassurance.

"You're not gonna talk to me?"
He said in a soft tone, pressing a light kiss to Johnnie's tatted neck.

"Sorry," Johnnie suddenly apologized as his gaze looked over at his boyfriend. He looked so tired and restless.

Carrington's heart clenched at the sight of Johnnie looking so tired and restless. He reached up to gently cup his face.

his thumb gently rubbing against his cheek."Don't apologize, baby. You're not in trouble. Just tell me what's going on."

Johnnie sits up in the bed. The blanket slides down as he moved. Showing his tatted chest. He covered his face with his tattooed hands, holding back tears.

Carrington sat up as well, concern etched on his face as he saw Johnnie's tears. He gently pulled his hands away from his face, revealing the tears that were streaming down his cheeks.

"Baby, hey, look at me."He said softly, his heart breaking at the sight of his boyfriend crying.

Johnnie looked up at Carrington with tears rolling down his face. Tears rolled down his face tats of the moon and bats as he makes eye contact with Carrington.

Carrington's heart ached even more as he saw the tears on Johnnie's tatted face. He reached out and gently wiped away the tears with his thumb, his touch gentle and soothing.

"Please, tell me what's wrong. You're scaring me, baby."He said softly, his eyes filled with worry and concern.

Johnnie sighed. He looked down. "I've just been feeling depressed lately," He admitted. "I don't know why, there's no cause - i just haven't been sleeping and shit.. I don't know why."

Carrington's expression softened as Johnnie admitted to feeling depressed. He gently cupped his face in his hands, making him look up at him again.

"Oh, baby... I'm so sorry you've been feeling that way. You don't need a reason to feel depressed. Sometimes, it just happens."
He said, his voice filled with understanding and empathy. He pulled Johnnie closer, wrapping his arms around him in a tight hug.

Johnnie cried into Carrington's shoulder. "I just want the pain to stop.. that's all i wish for.."

Carrington held Johnnie tightly as he cried, his heart breaking even more at his words. He gently rubbed his back, trying to provide as much comfort as possible.

"I know, baby, I know. And I wish I could take away all your pain. But I'm here for you, okay Johnnie? I'll do whatever it takes to help you feel better."He whispered, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of his head.