C+J•G~Drabbles!

☆"Johnnie.., Why?"☆

TW: SELF HARM, depression, anxiety, panic attack, mental illness, blood.

[ Carrington catches his bf Johnnie harming himself. ]

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Johnnie is crying in his room one night. Laying on his side. His depression hit him hard tonight, and he was just too much in his head.

Soft sobs left his lips as he forced himself to sit up. He pushed his hair back as he sniffled.

Wiping the messy makeup on his eyes, but it only made the emo makeup smudge even more.

He got off his bed and stumbled towards his bathroom. He closed the door, sliding down his bathroom door and crying.

Carrington was just on his way to get a late night snack when he heard a faint sound. He paused and listened, walking towards the noise.

The sound was coming from Johnnies room and he slowly approached the door.

He pressed his ear to the door, listening to the crying and softly knocking on the door.
"Hey...Johnnie?"

But it wasn't from his bedroom, it was from the bathroom connected to the bedroom.

Johnnie is crying softly in his bathroom. Before he gets up and ripped open his bathroom drawer where is shaving kit is. He grabbed the razor and broke it so he could get the blade from it.

He wasn't thinking, he just slides down and sits on the floor. Shoving up his sleeve as he stared at the blade and then his tatted arm, debating if he should or not. He was scared and didn't want to relapse.

Carrington pressed his ear to the door and could now clearly hear it coming from the bathroom.

He started to get worried. Johnnie was crying in there and...he was worried. He knocked on the door again, this time a little louder and more urgent.
"Johnnie...are you okay?"

Johnnie got startled by the door knocking but he didn't respond. He numbly stared at his arm and made up his mind. He was listening to his negative thoughts as he began to harm himself.

Carrington began to panic when he didn't receive a response, and he began to jiggle the door knob.

"Johnnie opens the door...*please*!"
He said, his voice was starting to crack as worry filled his entire body.

He needed to know if Johnnie was okay...he needed to see him. To hold him. He needed to be there for him. Even if he didn't know why he needed it so badly...

Johnnie sighed, he shoved his sleeve back down. Hiding his fresh wounds as he puts his razorblade away in his pocket of his jeans. He gets up and walked to his bedroom door, he unlocked it and opened it.

Carrington nearly fell into the room when the door opened, but he managed to catch himself.

He quickly looked at Johnnie up and down to see if he was okay. He didn't notice the fresh wounds on his arm, but he definitely saw his puffy red eyes.

His heart dropped and he gently cupped his cheeks, tilting his head up to look at him."Baby...what's wrong?"

Johnnie shakes his head, "Nothing, babe," he replied. As he kissed Carrington's cheek, "Sorry."

"Don't apologize, baby, it's okay."Carrington spoke softly, pulling him closer to his chest.

Johnnie sniffled as he pulled back. "How was your modeling shoot today?" He asked, rubbing his arm as he sits on the bed.