C+J•G~Drabbles!

☆"When He Cries"☆

TW: depression, crying episode/breakdown, mental illness, self doubt

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Tonight, Johnnie just couldn't hold back anymore. He has been putting on a fake facade for Carrington. trying to pretend he is okay when he is not. He is hiding his face into his pillow and crying into it. His body is shaking with sobs and can be slightly heard in the other room.

Carrington soon noticed the sobs coming from the other room. He immediately stopped what he was doing and looked up from his phone.

A frown formed on his face, and he walked over to the bedroom door, knocking on it. "Hey, Johnnie?" He called out softly.

Johnnie didn't even hear Carrington calm his name. He is bawling into his pillow, making it damp with his tears. His body shaking from his depressed sobs. He tried his hardest to stay strong but he crumbled down.

"Johnnie?" Carrington repeated, a hint of worry in his voice.

He slowly pushed the door open, revealing the sight of Johnnie bawling his eyes out into his pillow. Carrington's heart ached at the sight. He quickly walked over to the bed and sat down beside Johnnie.

"Hey, hey," he said gently, placing a hand on Johnnie's back. "What's wrong? Talk to me."

Johnnie lifted his head. His makeup is smeared. His eyes are red and puffy. His lip is quivering. Tears are pooling out of his eyes as he hiccups more sobs.

Carrington's heart shattered at the sight of Johnnie's tear-stained face. He quickly pulled him into a tight embrace, wrapping his arms around him and holding him close.

"Shh, it's okay," he murmured, rubbing Johnnie's back soothingly. "Just let it all out. I'm here for you."

Johnnie hides his face into Carrington's shoulder, crying. "I don't know what I'm doin.. everything is overwhelming and I'm so confused.. i thought i was okay, I'm not okay,- I'm sorry"

Carrington held Johnnie even tighter, his own heart breaking at the sound of his apologies. "You don't have to apologize," he whispered, gently running his fingers through Johnnie's hair. "You're not okay right now, and that's perfectly fine. It's okay to feel overwhelmed and confused."

He pulled back slightly to look at Johnnie, his eyes filled with concern. "Talk to me. Tell me what's going on. Let me help you."

"I don't know its just little things started piling up and the more i brushed them aside the more they got to me and then everything just kinda releases and i end up having these crying episodes" Johnnie wiped his eyes, "im just so fucking depressed and I'm frustrated."

Carrington listened intently as Johnnie spoke, his heart aching for him. He understood all too well how the little things could build up and take a toll on someone's mental health.

"Hey, it's ok to feel frustrated when you're going through something," he said gently, reaching up to brush a strand of hair out of Johnnie's face. "And depression is no joke. It's a tough thing to deal with, and it's okay to not be okay."

He paused for a moment, searching for the right words. "But you don't have to go through it alone, Johnnie. I'm here for you. We can work through this together."

Johnnie's tears dried. He just kept his head on Carrington's shoulder. "Thank you," he mumbled.

Carrington held Johnnie close, running his hand up and down his back in a soothing motion.

"You don't have to thank me," he replied softly. "That's what friends are for. We're here to support each other through the good times and the bad."

He leaned his head against Johnnie's, his voice filled with sincerity. "I'm not going anywhere, okay? I'll be right here with you every step of the way. You're not alone in this."

Johnnie smiled timidly. Grateful for Carrington and his comforting words. "Thank you,"

Carrington smiled back, his heart warmed by Johnnie's timid smile. He gently lifted Johnnie's chin, tilting his head up to meet his gaze.

"Anytime," he said, his voice soft and full of affection. "You can always count on me, okay? I love you, and I'm here for you through thick and thin."

"I love you too man, you're always so patient and listening. I like that about you, you're such a great friend" Johnnie laid his head onto Carrington's shoulder.

Carrington chuckled softly, his heart swelling with affection. "A great friend, huh?" He teased playfully. "I'll take that as a compliment."

He wrapped his arms around Johnnie, pulling him closer and planting a gentle kiss on the top of his head. "You're an amazing person, Johnnie. I'm grateful to have you in my life."

Johnnie laid back down in his bed. "i think im okay now. But can you stay with me tonight?" he sniffled quietly.

Carrington smiled warmly and nodded. "Of course I'll stay with you tonight," he replied, shifting to lie down next to Johnnie. "I'll stay by your side all night, if that's what you need."

He pulled the covers over them and wrapped his arms around Johnnie, holding him close. "Just relax and try to get some rest, okay? I'm right here with you."

"Thanks Carrington," Johnnie kissed Carrington's lips and pulled away before the brunet could react. He then rolled over so his back is facing his roommate and he goes to sleep.

Carrington watched as Johnnie rolled over, his lips tingling from the unexpected kiss. He smiled to himself, feeling a flutter in his chest.

He shifted closer to Johnnie, wrapping his arm around his waist and spooning him from behind. He pressed a gentle kiss to the back of Johnnie's neck before whispering,

"Sweet dreams, Johnnie."

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