C+J•G~Drabbles!

☆Isolation☆

TW: depression, mental illness, self isolation, fear of rejection , self doubt , anxiety , heavy cussing

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Johnnie has been inside of his room for the past couple days. Avoiding Carrington. The reason why is because a few days ago they were drunk at a party and Johnnie accidentally slipped out his confession of love to Carrington.

Ever since then he's been avoiding his roommate because of feeling embarrassed and the fear of rejection. This caused him to spiral into a fit of depression and self-doubt.

Carrington knocked on the door. “Dude. You’ve been in there for like, two days now. Are you okay?”He leaned his forehead against the door, sighing. “Can I come in?”

"No," Johnnie replied. Laying in his bed and onto his side. He pulled the blanket over his head to hide himself more as Carrington just opened the door.

Carrington walked in, shutting the door behind him. He walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge of it, looking at the lump under the blanket.“Are you avoiding me?”

No response came back. Johnnie shifts a bit but the lump of blanket remained over the emo's head. He refuses to budge, Johnnie was too scared to look at Carrington in the eyes.

Carrington chuckled and pulled the blanket off of Johnnie’s head. “Come on. Don’t be a baby.”He sat down in front of him, crossing his legs and staring down at him.

"Nooo," Johnnie whined and grabbed the blanket. Pulling it back over his head. He tucked up his knees too and just looked like a ball underneath the blankets.

Carrington groaned and laid down next to him, pulling the blanket away again. “I’m not leaving until you talk to me.”

"No, it's embarrassing and i said it drunk and i know you don't like me," Johnnie replied as he has his back turned on Carrington.

Carrington’s face softened. “You really think I don’t like you?”He gently placed a hand on Johnnie’s shoulder.

"No you don't," Johnnie doubts. Glancing over at Carrington with teary blue emo eyes.

Carrington chuckled. “Dude. You really think I’d be lying here right now if I didn’t like you?”
He gently grabbed Johnnie’s chin, turning his face towards him.

"I don't get it.." Johnnie looked up at Carrington. His blue eyes locked themselves onto Carrington.

Carrington smiled and gently caressed Johnnie’s cheek with his thumb. “You’re so clueless. You’re an idiot.”He paused for a moment, looking into his eyes. “But I love you anyway.”

"Shut the fuck up loser," Johnnie sassily bickered before he realized what Carrington said. "Wait... huh..?"

Carrington chuckled, his hand still resting on Johnnie’s cheek. “You heard me. I love you, idiot.”

Johnnie felt himself blush. His eyebrows furrowed together and his blue eyes widen in surprise.

Carrington smirked, finding it adorable that he was blushing. “You’re blushing. It’s cute.”
He pinched Johnnie’s cheek.

"But i said it drunk and i meant it in a better fucking way, i don't know why it slipped out like that," Johnnie covered his face with his hands.

Carrington laughed and gently pulled Johnnie’s hands away from his face. “It’s okay, I’m not mad or anything. You just took me by surprise. But I’m glad you meant it. I was a little scared that you didn’t actually love me and that you were just drunk.”

"No, no! i fucking mean it! i love you!" Johnnie exclaimed as he leaned in a bit.

Carrington smiled and pulled Johnnie closer to him, wrapping his arms around his waist. “I love you too, dumbass.”He gently booped his nose.

"Bitch," Johnnie chuckles as he connected their lips into a soft kiss.

Carrington smirked against his lips and kissed him back. He ran his fingers through Johnnie’s hair, gently pulling him even closer.

Johnnie pulled back, "Fuck, you're so hot." He said, but clamped his mouth shut when he realized.

Carrington chuckled, a smug expression on his face. “Oh, am I now?”
He raised an eyebrow, looking down at him. “Keep going.”

Johnnie playfully shoves Carrington. "Shut the fuck up!"

Carrington laughs and pins him down to the bed, straddling his hips. “Make me.”

Johnnie sits up halfway and pecks Carrington's lips. "So you really do love me? Youre not lying or anything?" He doubts.

Carrington smiled and gently caressed Johnnie’s cheek again. “Of course I’m not lying. Why would I lie to you? You’re the most important person in my life.”
He leaned in, pressing a gentle kiss to his forehead.

"You mean that? because honestly i thought you liked Chase..." Johnnie frowned.

Carrington’s expression darkened for a moment. “Chase? Why would I like him like that?”

He gently grabbed Johnnie’s chin again, forcing him to look at him. “I only like you. I don’t care about Chase in a romantic way, or any other guy. You’re the only one I want.”

Johnnie started to giggle. A smile creeping back up onto his face.

Carrington smiled back, loving the sound of his giggles. He playfully poked his cheek. “Why are you giggling? Are you happy?”

Johnnie clings onto Carrington. "Yeah, of course i am, you make me happy"

Carrington wrapped his arms around Johnnie, holding him close to his chest. “I’m glad I make you happy. You make me happy too, you know".He buried his face in his hair, inhaling his scent.

Carrington gently kissed the top of Johnnie’s head. “I love you so much. I’m never letting you go.”

He pulled back and looked down at him, his eyes filled with love and affection. “You’re mine now, got it?”

Johnnie nodded, "Mhm!"

Carrington gently pinched Johnnie’s cheek. “You’re mine. No more hiding in your room and avoiding me. You have to deal with me now.”He smirked, his eyes filled with a playful glint. “I’m gonna annoy you 24/7.”

"Well we can hide together, I won't be lonely anymore" Johnnie replied, smiling.

.Carrington chuckled. “You’re never going to be lonely again. I’ll always be here with you, no matter what.”

He gently ruffled Johnnie’s hair. “We can cuddle all day, every day.”

"Deal" Johnnie agreed.

Carrington grinned and pulled Johnnie even closer. “Good.”

The two cuddled in the bed and talked and shared kisses for the rest of the day.

The end
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