C+J•G~Drabbles!

☆"Gorgeous"☆

cw; bad self image , insecurities, self doubt , depression

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Johnnie quietly sneaks out of his bedroom and out of his boyfriend Carrington's arms as he walks to the bathroom. He closed the door and flicked the light switch on. He stared at himself in the mirror.

Carrington's eyes opened and he realized his boyfriend was gone. He let out a soft groan before getting up and going to the bathroom door, knocking on it.

"Babe?" He called out, his voice raspy from having just woken up.

Johnnie was looking at himself. Hating the reflection. He crossed his arms as he didn't respond. He was too focused on his reflection.

Carrington continued to knock on the door, growing more concerned.

"Are you alright?" He asked, resting his forehead against the door. "You're not gonna stay there all night, are you?"

Carrington decided to open the door. "Johnnie?" he called.

Carrington opened the door and saw Johnnie standing there. He was a bit surprised at first but quickly became concerned when he noticed Johnnie's expression."Babe, what's wrong?" He asked, stepping closer to him.

Johnnie has tears rolling down his face. Looking at himself in the mirror. "Am i good enough for you..? I had a dream that you left me because I'm not pretty enough.."

Carrington's expression softened as he saw Johnnie crying. He quickly wrapped his arms around him, pulling him into a tight hug.

"Oh, baby..." He murmured, rubbing his back. "Of course you're good enough for me. You're more than good enough. You're perfect."

Johnnie pulled away and looked at the mirror again. His back facing his boyfriend. His emo makeup is a mess.

Carrington frowned as Johnnie pulled away. He stepped up behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist, resting his chin on his shoulder.

"You don't need to be so hard on yourself," he said softly, looking at him in the mirror. "You look amazing. You always do."

"I don't think so. I don't think I'm good enough for anything. I'm just here." Johnnie frowned.

Carrington tightened his grip on him, holding him close.

"You're not just *here*. You're here with me, and you're amazing. You're smart, you're funny, you're kind, and you're beautiful. I love you so much."

He turned Johnnie around so that they were facing each other, his hands resting on his hips.

"You really think I'm that gorgeous?" Johnnie scoffed lightly as he looked at Carrington.

Carrington cupped Johnnie's face in his hands, looking into his eyes with sincerity.

"I don't think it, I know it Johnnie. You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen. And I'm not just saying that because you're my boyfriend. You have the most gorgeous eyes, the cutest nose, the softest lips..."

He trailed off, his thumbs gently stroking Johnnie's cheeks.

Johnnie blushed as he leaned into the touch. "I'm sorry for waking you up and worrying you, I didn't want to be a bother"

Carrington smiled softly, his heart warming at the sight of Johnnie blushing.

"You're not a bother, babe. I'm always here for you, no matter what. I want to be here to comfort you when you're upset, and to remind you how amazing you are."