twisted feelings ; || sjy+

one hundred nine.

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When you arrived home, Jake had been putting the groceries in the fridge.

"Oh hey baby, how was school? " He said.

"School? Oh, yeah, it was good. " You said softly.

"Baby? You okay? You seem down? Did something happen? " He said walking over to the counter.

You walked over to the counter and sat down.

"Can we talk? " You said.

"Sure baby. " He said walking over to sit next too you.

He sat down and moved your hair.

"What's up? " He said.

"How come you didn't tell me you had a work trip coming up? " You said.

"Oh, that, I was gonna tell you. " He said.

"Is it really two weeks Jake? " You said.

"Yeah its fashion show week in Paris, so they wanted me to come see it, and maybe move me over to Chanel. " He said.

"Chanel?! " You said.

"Yeah, it's between Chanel and Dior. " He said.

"Jaeyun, that's wonderful, I'm so happy for you, are you getting paid more? " You said.

"Yep, 70%. " He said.

"Jake?! Oh my god! " You said giving him a hug.

"Wait? Does that mean? " You said.

"No baby, I'm not moving there, I wouldn't leave you. " He said.

"Okay good, I would be devasted. " You said.

He smiled.

"No, I would never leave you, but, that does mean I will be traveling more if they do end up accepting me, so I won't be around as much, so that means, you have to be even more extra helpful, okay? " He said.

"I will baby, I'll take care of the house, I'll cook, I'll walk the dogs everyday, I'll clean as much as I can, I'll even go shopping every weekend. " You said.

"I know you will baby, you always do, but there's one thing I really want you to do for me, okay? " He said.

"Yes, anything. " You said.

"I want you to start writing, everyday, as much as you can, I've seen the potential you have when it comes to writing, you're talented baby, extremely talented, and I want you to reach your goal, I want you to be more confident in yourself, when I'm not around, because you are absoultely beautiful baby, every inch, every part of you, and I need people too see how talented my baby is, because you are, I don't want you being scared of yourself baby, I need my girl, to have the future she's always wanted, can you do that for me ? " He said.

You looked at him.

"Baby, I-I don't know... " You said.

"Baby listen too me, you cannot be afraid to chase your dreams, life is full of ups and downs, but, that doesn't mean we should stop chasing, you only live one life baby, it's been almost two years since you been living with me, baby, I need you to push yourself, you have so much potential, and you hide all of it underneath that beautiful heart of yours, I need you to believe in yourself, like I do, like Ni-ki does, like Heeseung does, like Sunghoon does, like Jay does, baby, you need to stop being so afraid of failing, it's normal baby, it took me so long to get to where I wanted to be, but I'm happy with how far I've come, I'm financially stable, I'm a full time student, I have a dog, an apartment, I have a beautiful roommate, and now I'm making 10 times the amount of money I was making before, I have the life I've always wanted, but that doesn't mean it didn't take me awhile to get here, baby, I need you to believe in yourself, you cannot feel like you fail at everything, because you really don't baby, you're so amazing in so many ways, and I need other people too see that, you have the potential baby, make it happen, start your life, that is all I want. " He added.