twisted feelings ; || sjy+

eighty-three.

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Back in Heeseung's apartment, the rest of the boys had arrived.

"Hyung, you definitely need a new beanbag, this one is getting so old. " Sunghoon added.

"What? No, I've had that beanbag since Jake and I's freshman year, it's been good too me. " Heeseung added.

"Hyung? The beans are literally falling out? " Jay added.

"Okay And? I can just clean them up. " Heeseung said.

"Guys, guys, it has a special place in Heeseung's heart, why get rid of something so special. " Ni-ki added.

"See Ni-ki gets it, thanks maknae." Heeseung said high fiving him.

"I got you Heeseungie hyung. " Ni-ki said high fiving him back.

Heeseung smiled at Ni-ki.

"Thanks kiddo. " Heeseung said.

"I got you. " Ni-ki said.

"Anways, so Hoonie? " Jake added.

Sunghoon rolled his eyes.

"Now what? " Hoonie said.

"How are things with Emily? " Jake added with a smile.

"They're just fine Jake, nothing crazy. " Sunghoon said.

"Mhm I see? " Jake said.

"When you gonna take her out? " Jay butted in.

"Can yall not please, she's still in a relationship, there's nothing going on, I was just being caring, it's not easy going through something like that. " Sunghoon added.

"True, you think it's gonna last long, like on some real shit? " Heeseung added.

"Honestly no, I don't see any good coming out of this. " Sunghoon said.

"Poor Em, they were together for so long. " Jay said.

"Yeah seriously, I feel for her, she really loved him, but she deserves better anyway. " Sunghoon said.

"I agree totally. " Jake said.

"She'll find someone, who will actually care for her. " Heeseung said.

"I really hope so. " Sunghoon said.

The boys went quiet.

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Back in Kaira's apartment, Emily had fallen asleep, Kaira sat on the living room couch, containing her emotions and feelings, as everything was still processing through her mind.

She sat silently, as she slowly began to process everything.

How was she supposed to show Jake she wasn't hurting him and herself inside.

Emily woke up and noticed Kaira wasn't in her room and went to find her.

She headed into the living room and noticed Kaira on the couch.

"You okay KK? " She said feeling concerned.

"Oh did I wake you? and yeah, kinda. " You said.

"No you're okay, wanna talk ? " She said.

"Actually that might be helpful. " You said.

"Of course, I'm all ears my love, what's up? " Emily said sitting next too her.

"I can't stop thinking about what you said about Heeseung. " You said.

"Oh, I hope I didn't scare you, I didn't mean too. " Emily said.

"No, No, you're totally okay love, I don't know, he just won't stop running through my mind, it's getting kind of annoying to be honest. " You said.

"Well are they good things at least? " She said.

"Yeah they are. " You said.

"Hm okay well, how about this. " Emily added placing her hands on Kaira's knees.

"Please anything will help. " You said giving Emily your full attention.

"Well if they're good things, why don't you explore them more with Heeseung. " She said.

"Explore them more? How? " You said.

"Well let's start easy, try hanging out with him more. " She said.

"Okay, and then what? " You said.

"Well, try going out to eat with just the two of you, and see where that leads you. " She added.

"But what about Jake? " You said.

"Jake's understanding, he'll understand, I don't think he'll get too upset. " Emily added.

"And also try exploring new things with Jake too, see who you feel more comfortable with, and your feelings will do the rest, I was in a similiar situation once, so I know exactly how you feel my love. " Emily added.

"You were? " You said.

"Yeah, before I ended up being with Yejun, I was talking to this other guy named In-Su, but he ended up moving to America, I really liked him too, but I spent time with them individually, and ended up just clicking with Yejun more, and In-su was just as wonderful, he was only here for the summer though, I miss him sometimes, but I'm glad I chose Yejun, it was what I wanted and what my heart wanted, and I don't regret it at all. " Emily said.

"But weren't you sad? " You said.

"Oh insanely, I regretted it for a bit, but I was so much happier, and I'm glad I spent time with In-Su when I did, sometimes things just don't work out the way you want them too, and that's okay, you just gotta take it one step at a time, and you'll eventually find what you're looking for. " Emily said.

"Wow, I'm so sorry you went through that Em, I can't imagine how hard it must've been for you. " You said.

"It was, but I'm happy with what happened. " Emily said.

"So just spend time with them? " You said.

"That's it, and you'll know, trust me, make time for Heeseung, and always make time for Jake. " Emily said.

"Okay, I'll try too. " You said.

"Okay good, and I'll be with you every step of the way, I promise. " She said hugging you.

You hugged her back, and smiled.

"Come on, let's get some sleep. " She said grabbing your hand.

You smiled and headed to your room.

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When you got to your room.

You laid down and thought for a bit.

"Good night my love, I'll see you in the morning. " Emily said turning off your desk light.

"Good night. " You said.

Emily drifted back too sleep shortly after.

You stared up at your ceiling.

This was gonna hurt Jake so much, and you hated it, but Emily was right, this was the closure you needed.

You needed time, and hopefully time was in your presence.

A tear dripped down your face as you tried to fall asleep.

You had no idea what too do anymore.

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a/n: hi my loves !! i'm so sorry for not posting for three days I was on vaction, and had no time to write !! but i am back, things have changed massively !! lmk who you think kaira chooses ? i hope you all enjoyed this chapter !! and that you had a wonderful weekend !! like i always say, i will see all you lovely ppl in my next chapter !! 💕

- with love,
- maya🩶