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You made it back to your apartment, as you placed everything down on the kitchen table, you grabbed some water from the fridge and headed outside to the balcony to think some more.
"I knew going out was a mistake. " You said to yourself.
You paced back and fourth on the balcony, thinking about what to do next.
Your mind was racing through all your do's and don'ts, you never expected it to get this bad.
Three months already? And they were still a wreck even if they did deserve better.
"Why didn't they just forget about me ?" You said.
"I was hurting them, I didn't want them to remember me, I wanted them to forget me. " You said.
"Sissy? " Ni-ki's voice emerged from inside.
"Oh you're home. " You said.
"Yeah, what's going on ? " He said walking out.
"How was Kiro? " You said.
"He was good, he's a bit overweight, but overall, he's really healthy. " Ni-ki said.
You sighed.
"Good, that's good. " You said.
"Yes, but you didn't answer my question, what's wrong ? " He added.
You looked at him and sighed.
"Sit down. " You said sitting down on a chair.
"Um okay, what's going on ? " He said sitting down next too you.
"I went out today. " You said.
"You did? See, I knew you would, but why so down? " He added.
"I bumped into Sunghoon, on my way home. " You said.
"Really? How is he? What'd he say? Are the others okay? " He added.
"No Ni-ki, they aren't. " You said.
"What? How? " He said.
"Jake and Heeseung... " You said breathlessly.
"They're not doing good. " You added.
"Well why would they be okay? You left. " He said.
"I know, everyones been telling me the same thing, don't you think I get it. " You said.
"Sissy, you know I didn't mean it like th — " You cut him off.
"You did mean it like that, and you're completely right. " You said.
"I-I am? " He said.
"Yes, you all are right, but I don't know what to do Ni-ki. " You said.
"Do you miss them? Ever? " He said.
You sighed.
"Everyday. " You said.
"Then go see them Kaira. " He added.
"W-What? " You said looking over at him.
"Yes, go see them. " He said.
"I-I can't Ni-ki... " You said.
"Yes you can, you're just scared too. " He said.
"Yes, Yes, I am scared too okay? I hurt them, and I will hurt them again. " You said.
"Why do you think I left in the first place? They deserved better, they need better. " You said.
"Sissy, listen too me, it may seem like that on your part, but from what I see, they need you Sissy. " He said.
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Fanfictiontwisted feelings. "i could never hate you..." kaira, an english major, transfers to a university in seoul, south korea, excited to start fresh in a country she adores, when she's suddenly surprised to find out her roommate is a boy named jake, alth...
