INTERNAL CRIES

Kabanata 34

Kabanata 34
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Pagkatapos mag-usap ni Daddy at Kheeno ay sabay na kaming umalis. I was riding on Kheeno’s Jeep dahil ihahatid ako nito sa planta. My father went to the company too for a meeting.

Habang binabaybay namin ang daan palabas ng hacienda ay hindi nawala sa isip ko ang narinig kong pinag-usapan nina Daddy kanina.

I have questions, but I don’t want to force myself to ask him if I know that I wasn’t ready to hear the possible answers. I know I wasn’t ready yet. I just wait for the right time to learn everything, step by step.

I sighed.

Agad kong naramdaman ang kamay ni Kheeno sa ibabaw ng kamay ko, kaya nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. His other hand was holding mine, while the other was on the steering wheel.

“Is there a problem?” He sounded worried, and his eyes were puffy while looking at me.

Umiling kaagad ako.

“Nope.”

“Are you sure? You looked bothered.” I smile at him to assure him that I’m fine.

“I’m fine, Kheen, I was just thinking about my past though,” pag-amin ko.

Thinking about my past bothers me. I’m curious about it.

“Do you want me to tell you about the past?” tanong ni Kheeno.

It’s tempting, you know? Knowing that I will learn about my past wants me to let him tell me about it. But a big part of them don’t want it yet.

“I... was just curious about it, you know. I mean, how’s my life before, how my day went on every day, how I managed my time. I’m curious about... us.”

Gusto kong malaman, yes, pero gusto ko ring kusa ko ang mga iyon maalala.

Nang makarating kami sa planta ay agad ding nagpaalam si Kheeno na pupunta na sa kompanya dahil kasama siya sa meeting nina Daddy.

I watched him maneuver the car before he was completely out of my sight. Saka lang ako tuluyang pumasok sa opisina at naupo sa swivel chair at sandaling nagmuni-muni.

I spent my day in paperwork. Sometimes I went to the factory to check the workers and their work. Unti-unti na rin akong nasasanay sa araw-araw na ginagawa ko. It’s far different from my daily routine in Finland. It’s really different from my modeling career and meeting people in the industry like that.

Sometimes, I want to go back to Finland because I’ve been missing the place. But a big part of me is stopping me, lalo na kapag nakikita at nakakasama ko si Kheeno.

Alas sais na ng gabi nang sinundo ako ni Kheeno sa plantasyon. Dumiretso rin kami ng uwi sa bahay nito.

Pagod ako at alam kong si Kheeno rin, dahil tahimik lang ito habang nagmamaneho pauwi.

“Are you okay?” tanong ko nang makababa na kami ng Jeep Wrangler nito at naglakad na palapit sa bahay.

I heard Kheeno sighed.

“Yeah, I’m fine. Just a mild headache. Let’s get inside, para makapagluto na ako at makakain na tayo.”

Tahimik akong tumango at sumunod kay Kheeno dahil hawak nito ang kamay ko.

Dumiretso ako sa kwarto niya para makapagbihis. Ito naman ay dumiretso sa kusina para makapagluto.

Nang bumaba ako ay nakita ko itong topless na nagluluto. His brows were creased and he looks so serious.

I walked towards him and hugged him from the back.

“Magbihis ka muna, ako na ang magtutuloy ng niluto mo,” malambing kong saad still hugging him.