𝕮𝖊𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖆𝖑 (Cheng Xiaoshi X Reader)

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NEW YEAR SPECIAL

"Ah look it's snowing!" you gazed at the window in awe. The white snow fell from the sky.

"It is~" the voice behind you spoke, you could hear the smile on his face.

The clock struck 11.

It was only an hour till new year. 

Here you both were, in your home, gazing at the glistening snow outside. 

Your brother wanted to be awake till 12, but eventually found his eyes closing. 

Cheng Xiaoshi's hands wrapped around your waist, pulling your back closer to his body. His face now buried in the warmth on your neck. 

With you in his arms. He felt content, safe. 

Last year he spent alone, gazing at the stary sky. He hadn't met Lu Guang till then, and Qiao Ling was spending time with her family. 

He didn't mind. 

At least that's what he told them. 

This year however, he had you tucked in his arms. He smiled softly at that thought. 

His lips gently pressed on the nape of your neck. The touch was warm. Soothing. 

You titled your head up to face him, he gazed down at you. 

Even in the dark of the night, He was glowing. Wherever he was, he shined. Like the brightest star. You wanted to wrap your hands around that brightness, shielding him from all the pain. 

He smiled at you. 

The same smile that always made you weak. 

"Hm? Are you shocked by my handsomness again? ~" he joked. 

You laughed softly. "How are you so cocky?" 

He leaned towards you, his warm breath ghosting you skin. Leaving a trail of fireworks at its wake. 

"You have to admit it though" he hummed, his lips gently pressing onto yours. "I'm pretty amazing" 

You rolled you eyes at his statement and turned around. "Ehhh, I don't agree" you teased. 

He had a smug smile on his face, he pushed your body on the window behind. His one hand was placed near your head, while the other pulled you closer by your waist. 

"Is that so?" he whispered softy into your ear. Your breath hitched. He kissed the tip of your ear, his lips then trailing down your neck, leaving gentle wet kisses. 

"I want you to say that again" His voice was challenging, as if he knew, that you wouldnt say it. 

You opened your mouth to speak. But you felt a warm sensation on your lips that shut you up. He kissed you. 

Your body felt hot, he leaned back. You opened your dazed eyes to see him leaning down to your collarbone, his teeth grazing your skin. 

He left small bites all over, leaving purple marks which would be a pain to hide to tomorrow. But it didn't matter right now did it?

"OK jeez stop I get it" your hands reached towards his shoulders, trying to push him off. You were scared. If this goes further, you might wake up (B/N). 

His laugh sent shivers down your spine. "Not until you admit it luv~" he grabbed your wrists, pinning them above your head on the window. He left a sloppy kiss on your lips. "I want to hear you say it (Y/N) ~" 

You felt your whole face heat up. His voice doing wonders to your already beating heart. "I-" you stuttered. 

"Say it" he kissed the area below your ear, coaxing you to admit it. He smiled seeing your hesitation, happy of the effect he had on you. 

"You amazing, ig" you cringed internally at your words. Damn him for making you say such embarrassing things. 

He blinked, his hands letting go of your wrists. It instead met his mouth, as he struggled to not erupt into laughter. "Oh my you actually said it!? Hahaha" 

You narrowed your eyes at him, finally pushing his body away from yours. "I hate you!" your words held no contempt. Rather just a playful undertone. 

"Hey I'm kidddinggg~ Don't run away from me" between his laughs he reached out for your hand. 

"What would I do withou-" his hands never met yours. They had dissappeared. You had dissappeared. "(Y/N)....?" As if they had never been there, the room was now empty. He looked up in panic, frantically searching around the room for you. 

You weren't there. 

The world around his started crumbling, slowing falling into the abyss. His breath got heavier, his hands went up to his head, trying to soothe the aching pain. 

"W-where are you..." He shut his eyes, unable to bear the throbbing in his head. 

And then. 

He gasped heavily. 

And opened his eyes, getting up in his bed. 

Instead of your room, or the dark abyss from before, he was back in his room. His eyes were red, dark circles beneath them. 

Just then, out the window tiny white things fell down. 

His eyes boredly looked out the window, having no interest in the snow that fell. "It's snowing huh..." 

Loud fireworks erupted in the night sky, red green and blue, signaling the coming of a new year. Yet he didn't care. His tired eyes went back to his shaking hands. 

His dream still lingering in his mind. 

He sighed, running a hand through his hair, sitting there in silence. 

It was 12:05 AM now. 

Another year, without you by his side. 

Cheng Xiaoshi got up from his bed, sleep the last thing in his mind. 

His dragged himself to the kitchen, grabbing a cup and pouring water in it. 

Yet again, 

Suppressing his emotions and Sorrow in the back of his mind. 

He has to be happy now. 

It's a new year after all.

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From the bottom of my heart, Happy new year to you all <33