𝕮𝖊𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖆𝖑 (Cheng Xiaoshi X Reader)

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The entire scene surrounding the boy changed in an instant. From his room, to a place that was dreadfully familiar.

"Let me see how it came out" Qiao Ling said excitedly as she skipped over to Cheng Xiaoshi and leaned over to look at the picture he had taken.

"Ugh you suck" she scoffed as she snatched the phone from his hand and gave it to Lu Guang with a smile. Lu Guang, now broken from his tranquility, took photos of the posing girl.

How many photos had he already entered till now? The boy had long lost count. 

Entering photos was his only solace, his escape.

He watched his two friends with a bitter smile.

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He remembered this day quite vividly.

He walked in silence beside Qiao Ling. They were on their way to the market.

The girl continued to chat, says things that at the moment he couldn't possibly care less about. Even if he felt bad, his thoughts were more addicted on you.

Suddenly he stopped.

There you were, smiling carelessly as you laughed with your brother. 

He missed it.

Everything you did led him to just miss you more, yet he couldn't stop the bitterness creeping inside of him.

"Oh it's you (Y/N)" his voice called out to you.

Even if he detested it, there was nothing he could do at the moment. This was the past, not the present. He knew going into the past was his way of rejecting reality...

But he couldn't stop himself.

He watched as your face turned to his, a quizzical expression dawning on it.

How had he not noticed before...? The little frown and the slight wrinkle of your eyebrows in the face of confusion.

Every time he entered a photo he learned something new about you. And he despised it as much as he relished in it.

"CHENG XIAOSHI TOLD ME ABOU-" The boy covered Qiao Ling's mouth before she could say something embarrassing.

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It would be a lie if he said that he wanted to hug (Y/N) right now, but he had to stick to the past.

He did miss talking to (B/N) after so long though.

He answered all the silly little questions he had with a fond smile.

'How comforting it would be if I remained so unaware' was all he could think about

"T-Then! Um, could it be that you like my sister?"

Ah. He remembered this vividly. It was the first time he had told anyone that he liked the (Y/N), and to her brother nonetheless.

'Don't say anything different...'

"in what sense?"

"...... romantically....."

No matter how torn the boy was, Cheng Xiaoshi couldn't help but smile at him. He playfully flicked the child's forehead.

"Aren't you too young to ask me that question?"

He was filled with warmth as (B/N) bickered back. He felt like smiling for the first time in any of the photos he entered. Seeing you always felt painful, but your brother was like a breath of fresh air.

He knelt down to the child's level. "I'll tell you the truth then..."

"Don't change the past."
Lu Guang's words echoed like a prayer in his mind.

'I like her' was what he is supposed to say. That's all.

And yet, with a sad smile on his lips, he found himself grasping the child's tiny hand in front of him. A smile that even (B/N) knew wasn't sincere.

"I love her"

The simple words that he uttered almost bought him to tears.

'I love you....'
'how long has it... Since I said that'

He had never uttered them for years. The thought itself made him want to yell out all his frustrations.

But he quickly masked his expression and continued walking with (B/N).

You watched both of them fondly, blissfully unaware.

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Happy Valentines Day!!


If you alr have a partner I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY TOGETHER!

And if you don't....
DW I'm the same LOL. Let us cry together and share our pain!

Buuut I still had to give a gift from my side this valentine soooooo! This chapter is that gift! Hope you enjoyed.