𝕮𝖊𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖆𝖑 (Cheng Xiaoshi X Reader)

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DISCLAMER: Here bold is just for effect

"You can tell me what's wrong" Cheng Xiaoshi stared at your averted gaze in worry.

Your gaze was, tired, broken even. You had already thought of what you would say.

To be honest, you had no idea why he liked you. There was nothing unique about you. You weren't very pretty, nor did you have a approachable personality.

But him.
Oh who wouldn't fall for him. Someone who would always be by your side, comfort you, laugh with you, cry with you, hug you close, and do anything else for you.

And if,

Just like Rin,

You hurt him.....

You wouldn't forgive yourself.

You would rather bear the pain of not having him in your life than hurt him.

"Cheng Xiaoshi"

You broke the silence. He tilted his head curiously.

"Let's break up"
You said it. You said it. You just said it.

The boy sitting next to you stayed still. He watched you closely for any indication of hesitation.

He couldn't find any.

And that broke his heart.

"Honestly being with you is tiring"

Just a little more and this will be done.

"Always clinging to me like some dog, and your ego, oh god... is just brimming all over"

Ah fuck. You never thought it would hurt to say this. But this was the only way he would believe you. Hate you. And end things with you.

"It's so annoying hearing your voice, I don't understand why you keep telling me stuff I don't care about..."

That's not true at all. You loved his voice, his every little expression, his smile and the pure joy on his face when you responded back.

"I don't know what I saw in yo-" you paused before finishing your sentence.

How could you continue with Cheng Xiaoshi looking like that? An expression of suffering, sorrow, and acceptance.

Fuck. He was crying.

You never thought the day would come where you would make him cry.

It took everything in your power not to wipe away his tears, tell him it was all a lie, and then give him another kiss.

I have to do this

"Please tell me it's a joke( Y/N)" his voice was so soft yet, so broken.

"It's not" you bit your lip.

"At least tell me what's wrong"

Oh, God's. Despite everything, he still chose to ask about your well-being. He was too good for you. It was all the more reason for you to this. You would eventually hurt him, like you hurt Rin.

'Cheng Xiaoshi honestly...' you wanted to scream.

"You are the problem Cheng Xiaoshi" you turned your body away from him, your voice uncharacteristically cruel.

"You were always the problem"

You walked away, despite the protests of your lover.


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"You're back" your mother sneered as she saw you come in. "you look terrible" she commented as she took a drag out of her cigarette.

You took off your shoes and went to the restroom without answering her.

As you closed the door behind you, your legs gave out. You sinked to the floor, your eyes blurry. You put a hand on your face as you cried out.

The silent screams weren't heard by anyone.

This hurt much more than you had imagined.

You had thought about how happy you both would be in the future, you truly believed that you both would be inseparable.

Because you loved him. You loved him so much.

But now it was all over. He would move on with his life. Probably hate you. Curse you.

All his sweet memories with you would probably become something he would despise to remember.

You kept on crying. It was the only thing you could do.

You stayed in there for an hour.





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"Lu" Cheng Xiaoshi looked at his friend without a hint of emotion on his face.

The white haired boy was confused, he had never seen his friend like this.He already noticed his red eyes, disheveled hair, bitten lip. He waited for him to continue.

"Can you be honest?"

"Am I not good enough?" He looked up to his friend, tears in his eyes, he looked like he was dying inside. He had never had this thought in his life, even when everything went southward he still believed in himself.

That was his strength.

Yet with just a few of your words, you made him question everything about himself.

You mattered that much to him.

Lu Guang's eyes widened, and without even thinking, he wrapped his arms around his friend.

"I know she is going through something but-" his voice broke.

"It hurts, it hurts so much" he tightened his hold on him.

"W-what if she actually m-means it" he choked out.

"I-I can't lose someone again" tears kept falling from his eyes, his voice coming out in gasps.

Cheng Xiaoshi cried his heart out in the arms of his friend the whole day.

FUN FACT!!!

1. I lied when I said this was a happy chapter lol

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With that the past ark is slowly coming to a close.

As much I love sad stories I do have some closure at the end of this book soooo...

ANYWAY

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