𝕮𝖊𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖆𝖑 (Cheng Xiaoshi X Reader)

ᴘʜᴏᴛᴏ 46

DISCLAMER: this is set in the present.

Lu Guang stood in front of his desk with a photo in one hand.

Blood still on his clothes, his eyes red.

He somehow managed to keep his sanity in check. Barely.

He brought his hands close, his eyes fixed on the photo.






'With this, there is a chance...'

Footsteps were heard slowly closing in on Lu Guang but he was far too focused to even listen.

'I might see your smile again'

"Lu Guang?"
You called out to him, your voice laced with worry.

"The door was open and-" you paused mid way as you looked at the blood splattered on his clothes and on the floor.


You didn't know why, but your mind immediately started to panic. Lu Guang looked at you with his emotionless eyes.

He recently got to know, about Rin. About her suicide.
It was heavily suppressed by her parents. But he knew.

And even if he knew...

And he didn't have the heart to tell Cheng Xiaoshi that Rin had killed herself.

He couldn't do that to his friend, so he left Cheng Xiaoshi in the dark. Lying to him.

But if he had known that Cheng Xiaoshi would blame himself for you leaving.... Would he tell him the truth? He always thought about it.

In the past and the future, would he ever tell him the truth, knowing that it would cause him pain?





And now, if he told you, about Cheng Xiaoshi...

'How would you react?'
He stared at you, eyes blurry as he looked at your worried gaze.

He knew he shouldn't tell you. A bitter laugh left his mouth, he knew that saying it would only break you to no return.

"Ah-" he gasped softly as he felt a warm liquid trailing down his cheeks.

'What about me?'

"What about my suffering?" he voice was soft, but even you could feel the mix of emotions pouring out from his mouth.

"Lu Guang.." your voice was soft as you put one leg forward to reach him, but his cold voice stopped you immediately.

"Don't come forward" he clutched the photo in his hand looking at you with a pained expression.

"... (Y/N) I'm sorry"

Your eyes widened at his words, you didn't know why was he saying this. This didn't feel right in any way.

"He said.... He loved you" you had never seen Lu Guang look so, defeated. His eyes were avoiding yours, as if afraid you would look through him.

"....Why? Why are you saying that in the past tense..." a feeling of dread welled up in your stomach, deep down you were afraid of his answer.

"Lu Guang what's wrong? Tell me? Where is Cheng Xiaoshi!?" you voice turned to that of pure desperation. You were desperate for any type of response from him.

He gave you a small pain filled smile. Not like the ones you remembered from the past, just a forced smile.

"I hope you can forgive me for what I do but... "

He bought his hands close to him and before you could even react he jumped into the photo.

"This is the only way to save him"













































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