Once Lost Hard to Gain Back

A Different Christmas

Harry was thinking that Charlie didn't actually like him and just wanted into his pants. That now that he willing had sex with the man then he was board and was going to throw Harry away like trash now. Harry didn't want to think like that. He knew that Charlie was busy with the dragons but to not hear anything from him for almost three weeks now was worrisome. Soon enough the school was on break. Soon enough Christmas day was there Harry, and his family had stayed at Hogwarts again the day was like the last he had woken to his normal pile of gifts he opened the gifts and went to find his aunt Minnie and uncle Filius to say thanks for the gifts. Once he was at his uncle Filius quarters, he knocked on the door to see if the man was there and by chance his aunt Minnie as well. After a couple of minutes and no answer he knocked again and waited a bit.

    After another couple of minutes and no answer he left headed towards his aunt's quarters to see if the two of them were there. Once there he knocked on her door. Again, no answer. So, after a second knock and no answer he left and headed to the great hall maybe the two of them was there. He entered the hall and looked towards the staff table and neither of them was in the hall. This was odd for Harry. So, after eating Harry made his way to the astronomy tower. He was puzzled about where his aunt Minnie and uncle Filius could be at the moment. Harry watched kids play in the snow. He wasn't sure how long he was there when a voice said "You are here again. Why don't you come to my quarters there are presents waiting for you." Harry got up and said, "Hi dad Happy Christmas." James said, "Happy Christmas Harry Bambi." James and Harry walked to his father's quarters once inside Harry was surprised to see Charlie. Harry went up to Charlie and Harry said, "I haven't received a letter from you in three weeks." Charlie said, "Sorry Harry I've been busy and couldn't write you." Harry shook his head. He was upset. His boyfriend said he was busy and couldn't write what a bunch of BS. Harry said "I have managed to find time to write you. Not only am I doing OWLs year I have begun my training into becoming a healer. It's not like I'm not busy myself."

Harry turned around and stormed over to a chair in the corner that faced away from Charlie and plopped into it. He refused to talk to Charlie. Harry was really hurt by Charlies actions. One letter saying he was busy and wouldn't know when he could write again was all it would have taken to pacify Harry and his insurcates. Around noon was when Charlie tried to approach his boyfriend again. He had tried a few times already just to get the silent treatment. Before Charlie could try talking to his boyfriend James had walked up to Harry. James and Harry walked down to James' room. Once in the room James said, "Harry why are you giving him the silent treatment he made a mistake it's not like he cheated on you." Harry said, "Dad him not writing even a note saying he didn't know when he could respond to a letter from me then my insurcates wouldn't have surfaced." James said, "Talk to Charlie don't ignore him." Harry said "I plan on talking to him dad. I just need to get my thoughts and how I want to approach it in order before talking to him. I haven't been ignoring him cause I'm mad. I want to say how I feel how he made me feel without it coming out in a jumble mess."

    James said "alright. Just so you know don't wait to much longer before you talk with him." Harry said "I have my thoughts in order now I'll talk to him. I will invite him to go for a walk with me." James said, "Ok love you son." Harry walked out of his father's room and found Charlie sitting on the chair by the fire. Harry said, "Charlie we need to talk will you go for a walk with me." Charlie was ecstatic that his love was wanting to talk. Charlie said, "Love I would love to go for a walk with you." Harry and Charlie left to walk around the school so they would have privacy. Charlie started the conversation and said "Harry loves I should have informed you about what was going on. I am sorry for not writing please just forgive me." Harry said "Charlie babe I'm not upset about the no letters cause your busy. It's the insurcates that came from the lack of letters. I had so many thoughts coming in and out of my head." Charlie said, "What are you saying love that by not saying I wouldn't be able to write for a while I caused you to doubt." Harry said "Yes Charlie. Part of me was thinking that you really didn't love me and only wanted to have sex with me. That you were board of me. That you were cheating on me. That you got killed."

    Charlie didn't know what to do. He didn't mean to cause such doubt in his love. He was just super busy with the dragons that he didn't have time to write to his love. He should have taken time to at least tell him he was busy. Charlie was quiet for some time not realizing that he was causing Harry worry. Charlie was trying to order his thoughts before he spoke again. Harry was thinking great Charlies going to think I'm too much. He's not going to want someone like me. I'm a burden and not worth dating. He's thinking of the best way to breakup with me. He must think I'm the worst. Eventually Charlie said, "Harry I think that maybe we need a break." Harry said "Oh so you're breaking up with me. I'm not worth it am I." Charlie said "Harry I meant from walking I thought we could sit on the bench over there. I am not breaking up. You are worth it." Harry and Charlie sat down on the bench and silence followed. Harry was thinking about Charlie was lying and didn't want him anymore. He hadn't realized that he was crying. He was spilling into a deep depression. He was convinced that Charlie was still figuring out how to break up with him. That he was being tactful and lest hurtful.

    Charlie hadn't noticed the tears at first but once he looked at Harry, he noticed them. Charlie reached over and wiped the tears from his loves face. He had to fix this. He had to make Harry see that he wasn't breaking up with him. He cupped his loves face and gently pulled him up to look at him. Charlie said "Harry, I love you with all my heart. I am not playing with your heart I wouldn't do that. I promise from now on even if it's a note to say I'm busy and can't write back for a while. I'll let you know  so you know what is going on and not feel insurcer. I don't want to make you think I'm going break up with you. I love you so much. I am so sorry I made you feel like I cheated on you, that you thought I only wanted to have sex with you. I love you very much Harry." Harry listened to Charlie. He was looking for something in Charlie's face and eyes. He found what he was looking for. He knew that Charlie was telling the truth.

    Harry said "You promise to write me and let me know when you're going to be super busy with the dragons. That you will write me, so I don't have doubts cause I don't hear from you." Charlie stroked Harry's cheek and said, "Yes love I promise to write you and diminish your doubts." Harry leaned into Charlie. Harry said "Thank you. It's all I want is to know you care and that you're not going play with my feelings." Charlie and Harry sat for a while talking and getting all of Harry's doubts out of the air. He and Charlie kissed and walked back to the chambers of James Potter. When the two had entered into the rooms it was just James in the living room. James gave a smile when he saw his son and his boyfriend. James said, "Harry Bambi did you talk all of your thoughts out." Harry said, "Yeah dad it's all good now." James said, "Good now you have gifts to open."

Harry opened his gifts from James and his twin brothers. It seems that he doesn't have gifts from the rest like normal. Harry smiled at his dad and thanked him for the gifts James told him welcome and gave a sad smile back. He knew how much his son was hurt by the fact that his godfather and pseudo uncle and Sam not getting anything for him for Christmas. Charlie said, "Harry are you ok." Harry put a fake smile on and said Yeah why." James went and hugged his son and said, "I'm sorry that your uncles and older brother still forget you." Harry said "It's not your fault that they forget still. Just cause my godfather doesn't want to be my godfather and the others forget cause I'm not important to them enough to remember. The twins are getting better cause they look up to you."

AN I do not own Harry Potter or the picture all rights go to the rightful owners of both