REN and The Heartless Devil

CHAPTER LV

Yesterday was like a fucking nightmare or worst. When nightmare strikes all you have to do is to wake up but this, no matter how many times I woke myself up the same truth keeps slapping on my face. Good thing there was Brylle and I couldn't thank him more for sticking up with me at my lowest. After I calm down, he drive me home nawalan na kami ng ganang mamasyal. Yuri looked at me quizzically but I just ignore her at nagkulong sa kwarto ko.

My body felt so heavy, I don't want to move even a bit. Ilang oras ba ako umiyak kagabi. Love really makes me weak, I am far from the Ren I made after Kenjie. "Gab gising ka na ba? Can I come in?" Yuri sounds so worried about me. Ayuko man syang harapin but I don't have the guts to shove her away.

I lazily got up from my bed and open the door. Nanlaki yung mata nya pagkakita sa mukha ko. I know I look pathetic, sobrang mugto ng mata ko dahil sa sobrang pag-iyak. I left the door open and went back to my bed. "Anong nangyari Gab?" She sits on the edge of the bed.

"We saw Grae at the mall yesterday."

"Oh di ba dapat masaya ka?" She look confused, kasi nga di ba I've been trying to reach him for how many days already. Tapos nung nagkita kami I should be happy and not the opposite.

"He's engaged with my sister. I saw them both yesterday" malungkot kong sagot sa kanya. I keep on telling myself that he has a reason for doing this pero masakit pa din talaga. I bit my lips for me not to cry.

"What the hell! Anong kagaguhan ang ginagawa ni Grae. At sa kapatid mo pa talaga hanep. Kinausap mo ba sya? Did he explained to you?"

I shook my head " I was about to ask him but I lost my drive when he said we're just schoolmate. Just what the fuck, right? Schoolmate? I felt so used and stupid." My tears started falling, shit hindi pa ba ubos to?

I felt Yuri's warm embrace seconds later. "Ayukong makita kang ganito kaya kausapin mo muna sya. Malay mo may mabigat na rason kung bakit nya ginagawa to di ba? Give him the benefit of the doubt, okay? Magtatanong din ako kay Brent baka sakaling magsabi na sya ng totoo." Tumango lang ako sa kanya while crying silently.

Monday, I was so eager to go to school. I want to see him and talk to him. I was still holding to his words. Ipinadama nya sa aking mahal nya ako, hindi naman siguro ganun kadaling mawala yun di ba.

My enthusiasm slowly fades, tanghali na at hindi ko pa din sya nakikita. I was anticipating to see him at the cafeteria for lunch pero wala sya. Sabi naman ni Brent pumasok daw si Grae ngayon. "Eat, he wouldn't like it if you'll lost weight" Brylle whispered to me kaya pinilit kong kumain kahit konti.

They already know about Grae being engaged. But not the fact that it was with my sister. Lahat sila na shock, kahit sino naman mabibigla talaga. He was courting me tapos malalaman nalang namin na engaged na pala sya sa iba. Kaya I understand why our table felt so gloomy.

I went to my usual place after lunch. I was expecting him to be there kaya kinakabahan na ako. My heart beats faster when I saw his familiar figure on his favorite spot. I fasten my pace towards him nakita kong napatayo sya bigla maybe he felt my presence. "Grae" mahina kong bigkas sa pangalan nya when I am few meters away from him.

"Grae" I called him again but I received no answer. I panic when he moved his feet and was about to leave kaya bigla kung hinawakan ang kamay nya. "G-grae don't you have anything to say?" I stammered, sobrang nasasaktan ako sa ginagawa nya. He can't even spare me a single glance.

My eyes widen when he slowly hold my hand only to be disappointed. Tinanggal lang pala nya yung hawak ko sa kamay nya. Sobrang pagpipigil ang ginawa ko not to sob in front of him. "There's nothing left to talk" sobrang lamig ng boses nya. Napayuko ako when he look at me with those cold eyes. Just like the first time we met.