A New Life, A Big Change {N.H} Book 1

Sickness and No Niall

It has been a whole week that I haven't spoken to Niall, he asked me to marry him, and I had to say no. I just feel that I am not ready yet.

I was feeling hot, and I felt sick to my stomach. I was still lying in bed when Aralynne came in.

She was whistling some tune before her eyes met mine. She rushed over to my bed and placed her hand on my forehead.

"Are you okay Z?"

"I think so, I just don't feel too well."

I rushed out of bed and made my way to the bathroom really quickly. I was nauseous for the last three days.

I took a sip from the basin and wiped my mouth with my shirt.

I got back to the room, and Aralynne had this worried look on her face. I got back into bed and gave her a reassuring smile.

"Don't worry."

"Are you sure you are okay?"

"I am fine, thanks." I closed my eyes, trying to sleep when Aralynne started talking again.

"What did you eat? It's been three days that you have been feeling like this."

"We ate pizza from the local deli nearby. Do you remember?"

"But why didn't it do something to me as well? We ate at the same place."

"You have a stronger stomach than me."

I wish Niall could have been here with me; he would know how to make me feel better.

I missed him so much, and my heart was aching for him. We are such different people that fit together like two pieces of a puzzle.

He was the one that showed me what true love really was, the one that accepted me for who I am.

He completed me. I stood up from the bed, once more rushing to the bathroom. I followed the same routine and headed back to the room.

I had this brilliant idea to move my bed to the bathroom until I was feeling better. It will save me a lot of time.

"Z, can I ask you something?"

"Sure A." I sat up straight in my bed with the blanket wrapped around my legs.

"Could it... you know? Uhm... be possible that you are pregnant?"

"No! I don't think so... We didn't do it..."

That is when reality hit me hard. Niall and I, we did sleep together, it happened so fast. I decided that I was ready, and I wanted him to be my first.

I gave my all to him, and I made the biggest mistake of my life. What if I am really pregnant? What will my parents think of me?

What will my siblings think? I am the youngest in the family and here I am, expecting a baby with someone I am not even married to.

"It... I could be. It happened when... we did it when we were in Paris."

"I will get you a pregnancy test."

Aralynne ran out to the shops, and I decided to lay down again. I fell asleep and woke up when Aralynne came in making a lot of noise.

She handed me the test and dragged me out of bed to the bathroom. I read all the instructions on the back of the box and did exactly like they said.

We waited for about two minutes, or longer. I watched how it showed two stripes, and I quickly grabbed the box making sure of what it said.

One line is negative; two lines are positive. This... it can't be. I am pregnant, I am going to have a baby.

"Zenè you're pregnant. This is so awesome." Aralynne was more excited than I was.

"This is the worst news ever, I can't be pregnant."

"When are you going to tell Niall?"

"I don't know."

"I suggest the sooner, the better."

"I know, but we haven't talked in a whole week."

"I know Z, but remember it's his child and responsibility as well."

"I know, but let's wait first. I will tell him when I am ready."

Aralynne hugged me, making me cry a little bit more. It finally sank in that I was going to have a baby.

I wasn't excited yet and giving Niall my everything was my own fault. I had to wait until I was married, but now I am going to be a single parent.

I knew that I had to tell Niall, but for now, I wanted to keep it quiet. I ran to my room, leaving Aralynne in the bathroom.

I fell on my bed and cried myself to sleep.

*Stay sweet Xoxo ✌.