Together: BTS X Reader 8th Member

Chapter 84

"But not now, we need to stay focused on this music thing. This was your idea," I huffed out, scribbling random words into my notebook.

"Sorry, I got carried away, so this song is a no to put out." He mumbled under his breath, scratching out the number one written on his paper.

"No. It's never going to be put out now. It's not meant to be perceived as explicitly sexual."

A snicker escaped Jungkook's parted lips, his gaze still focused on my notebook, looking for another song he could help produce.

"How about this one?" I said, flipping the book's pages until I stopped at a page with a star drawn in the corner.

His doe eyes scanned the page filled with lyrics. His reaction unreadable, it was as if he was unsure how to feel about the song.

"And, what is this one about?" his eyes never left the book, not even when he reached over to grab his iPad.

"I guess...I don't know..." I couldn't figure out the words to explain it to him. I knew he would understand since, to a degree, he was my inspiration for the song, but I wasn't sure he'd want to accept it. "

It's about how often the industry tried to infantilize me, as well as other idols..." My words were barely audible as I tried to gauge his reaction, but a blank face was what I was faced with.

"I'm only 18, but some fans and netizens see me as 15. They don't think I should be wearing heels, and want to see more of me in my school uniform, and constantly say I should act my age."

His gaze softened. Not the reaction I was looking for, but I wasn't looking for any sort of reaction, just understanding. He looked back down at the lyrics, his eyes skimming the page intensely.

"I know I'm not 26 yet, but that was on purpose. I'm not blaming anyone or trying to be ungrateful, but since day one of being in this company, I've been dressed up in tiny shorts and cropped tops, and mini skirts, and it makes me feel like the company wants me to look adult while also looking young, while the fans only want me to be the baby of the group and not grow up. Which is why the last bit of the song is talking about being 15,"

My explanation, which was meant to be short, turned long and into a full-on rant. Not once did Jungkook's expression change; he just kept looking down at the lyrics and back at me.

"This one. Release this one as a single. Do it when you're ready, but let's work on it now."

I couldn't help but roll my eyes at his words and his newfound urgency to pump out a song.

"Okay, the beat." The hardest part for me. I was musically challenged when it came to making beats.

"Maybe the intro can be something...dreamy, and flowy?" he suggested, tapping away at the buttons on his iPad screen. A gentle synth bell melody blasted from his iPad; it was simple, but it wasn't enough to be the beat for the entire song. Maybe the intro or outro.

"Then...add in some kick drums, some snaps and claps, with hi-hats ticking behind..." he was working like a madman, pressing on the screen, listening to the beats blending.

"A bit extra percussion, tone it down at the end, and give it some glitch...and boom! You just got your beat." He looked so proud of himself, he was gleaming with a huge smile on his face as he looked at me.

"We're gonna need to polish it and add some background vocals, but for now, you've got some progress."

"Thank you, Koo," I mumbled, reaching over his lap to grab my book and close it.

"Why did you write about that song? I don't mean it in a bad way, but it's not your typical topic."

I couldn't help but shrug since I felt like I already explained it to him. "I just wanted to write what I felt. I'm constantly pushed to be sexy, but I have to be cute and infantilized at the same time."