Good Things Fall Apart (Being Edited)

Reunions

"Everything I do is for you
And I really do adore you
Your getting so big now and your making me so proud
cause you are such a star, and you know that you are
Every single little moment I can't be there to hold your hand
I need for you to know that, need for you to know that
If anything should happen, anything should happen
Cause anything could, if anything should happen
Know that you'll be alright." Jhene Aiko~ Promises
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Journey

"Hurry up Jo they already there." Amod yelled from the bottom of the stairs.

Today I was going to meet his godparents. I didn't feel right about what I did with Javon but for some reason I didn't regret it but I sure as hell wasn't telling Amod anything. What we did was a one time thing and I needed Amod.

"I'm coming damn Mod." I slipped on my nude sandals and walked down the stairs.

I wore a white crop top floral shorts and white and pink Jordan's and my hair was braided in the front with my hair curly in the back.

Amod wore a jean button up that he had rolled up to his elbows black jeans and timbs. His dreads were pulled back into a ponytail and he wore a rope chain and a gold Rolex. He looked good.

"Well at least you look good." He said smiling then slapped my ass when I walked by.

"Ima kick your ass nigga." I laughed as I followed him out the door. I locked up and we were on our way.

"Are you nervous?" He said placing his hand in my thigh.

"I mean yeah this is my first time meeting someone's mom."

"You'll be fine just relax."

After about 10 minutes we were pulling up to a small outdoor restaurant called JCT. he walked around and opened the door for me and we walked in hand and hand. We looked around the tables and he pointed to the two that I'm guessing we're them. I smiled but when I looked closer my breathing stopped. A face that I thought I would never see again sat there smiling at the man in front of her. She looked different yet I could recognize her beauty from anywhere. The dimple in her cheek and her flawless smile was carved in my memory.

"Um can I use the restroom I'll be right over when I'm out." He nodded and made his was over to the table.

I ran into the bathroom and into a stall and pulled out my phone and dialed Nicki.

"Hey sis."

"Nicki guess who I'm having lunch with now."

"I don't know but I bet your gonna tell me." She replied smartly.

"Patricia fucking Simmons"

"Your lying" she said in shock

"I'm so serious I'm in that bathroom freaking out right now."

"H-how did you find her."

"I didn't she's Amod's Godmom Nicki this lady has a husband and a son...or a stepson I don't know."

"Here nana wants to speak to you your on speaker."

"Yes nana?"

"Why are you on the bathroom sweetie?"

"I-I can't go out there after all she did to us."

"You can and you will I raised you better than this. Don't run away from your problems this will better you baby and don't go out there disrespecting her now she's still your mother now your grandad has a doctors appointment so I gotta go."

"Ok nana I love yall"

"Love you to honey behave." She said before hanging up.

I took a deep breath before walking out of the bathroom. I walked over to the table and everyone looked at me and smiled. I looked directly at her and after a few seconds her eyes widened.

"Journey?" She said to no one in particular.

"Yea this is her." Amod said smiling. She rolled her eyes and fanned him off at his obliviousness. She stood up and came around the table and pulled me into a hug. I didn't hug her back I couldn't.

"Oh my god" she whispered in her ear.

Her husband got up and she pulled away.

"This is her thi-this is her where's Nicki? Oh my god where's Nicki?" I frowned at her.

"She somewhere your not." I said with spite.

Amod stood up and pulled out a chair for me. I sat down and looked down.

"Do you know each other?" Amod said looking between me and my deadbeat mother who had claimed her seat by her husband.

I said nothing I just nodded.

"Damn well how?"

"This is Daniella ,son." He said staring at me in awe and referring to me by my middle name.

"Her name is Journey." He chuckled

"Her middle name is Dan..." He trailed off.

"Can you give us a minute." She said looking at Amod and Her husband. They both nodded and got up.

"H-how are you?"

"Cut the bullshit okay? I promised my Grandma I wouldn't disrespect you but how could I not? You let your problems get your children taken from you. You never called you never wrote a fucking letter sent and Email or anything. You went out and got you a family and played fucking housewife to a man and his godchildren and his son. Or is that your son too...I mean he's my age but I wouldn't be surprised. You said you would come back for us and you didn't. Why?" At this point I was crying but I didn't care. She needed to know how much of a fuck up she was and I didn't mind being the one to tell her.

"Look Journey I understand your upset but I won't be disrespected I'm your mother." I scoffed but she continued.

"After you guys left I went to rehab for a year. When j got out I was clean so I began looking for you and your sister but I couldn't find you. But I swear I tried. Phillip was a old friend of mine and we ran into eachother. No Demarco is not my son biologically yet I am a mother to him but he's Phillips son. His mother died when he was 3 so I took on that roll for him but I never forgot about you and your sister I love you both just as much as I love Demarco. Now you probably don't wanna have anything to do with me but I would love it we got to know eachother again you and your sister."

I just nodded because what else could I say. She was my mother and I loved her regardless of the her she'd caused.

"I'm not gonna jump into anything but I will fly Nicki down here so we can all talk." She smiled

"I will love that." She said