Good Things Fall Apart (Being Edited)

Its Always been you

"Moment of honesty
Someone's gotta take the lead tonight whos it gonna be
I'm gonna sit right here and tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say you should say right now
You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I can take it I know I can take it
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore." Alicia keys~ unthinkable
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Excuse mistakes

Erica

So it's been about a month since we've brought home Jerry and things couldn't be better. I got my son sent down here so now it's me Jeremiah Tony and Javon. For the first time in my life I feel like I have a family even if Javon and I aren't official he's a great father none the less. I know yall are thinking I'm a bitch for what I did to Journey but I have my reasons. When I had Tony my mom didn't give a fuck about me or my baby. She said I had ruined my life and that me and my child were never gonna amount to anything. Yes journey was there but there was no man in my life to love me or one to love Tony. Jared couldn't give less fucks about me or Tony. He denied him when I was pregnant even though he's the one who took my virginity. It wasn't until he realized he could use Tony to get shit from me that he started to come around but for all the wrong reasons. I haven't even heard from him since about 5 months ago but I don't have an issue with that. I did love Journey but at a point it's all men for themselves and that's what it's come to for me.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Javon came in the room.

"He's asleep and I just took Tony to school." I smiled and nodded and just stared at him. He was sexy as hell.

"We need to start tryna find you an apartment down here Erica." He said as he dug around the closet looking for something. My smile instantly faded.

"Why"

"Cause you can't stay here" he said mocha fly which pissed me off.

"Why I can't we have a child why not try to work on us?"

"Cause there ain't no us Erica and if you wanna be technical it never was...we fucked one night and we had a child and Ima take care of my responsibilities but I don't want you."

"Why fucking not...it's cause that bitch huh?" He got up and walked towards me.

"She ain't no bitch don't test me Erica."

"She is a bitch she don't want you what don't you get about that she has a man who she probably live so why can't you just let them be happy and be happy with me." He said nothing

"If I gotta leave then I'm going back to Cali and Jerry's going with me." He came in my face and pointed his finger at me.

"You not taking him no fucking where you try and I got something for your ass." He said before storming out.
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Journey

"You gotta kiss her." The lady said looking frustrated.

Blake and I was doing a shoot for a magazine inspired by the legalization for gay marriage and now the woman wanted us to kiss I loved my Blakey but it was weird.

"Fine" we mumbled at the same time.

We looked at each other and shared a peck that was long enough for a picture and we were done.

We walked off the set and were walking back to our dressing room.

"You gonna go hang out with Cole?" She said as we walked into my dressing room.

"Yeah prob-" she stopped and ran into my bathroom and began letting out everything in her stomach.

"What the hell" I said as I ran to her pulling back her hair and rubbing her back.

She finished and rinsed up before walking back into my room.

"Fuck" she whispered

"What wrong?"

"N-nothing I'll talk to you later boo." She rushed out the room closing my door behind her.

"That was weird."

I finished up in my dressing room and walked out to my car. After about 15 minutes I was home. Blake was barely here so I basically lived on my own. I pulled out my phone as o was receiving a call.

"Hey baby " Amods deep voice boomed through the phone

"Hey Amod wassup"

"Um so you know how my godparents wanted to meet you?"

"Uh yeah..." I said growing nervous

"Can we meet up tomorrow? " my eyes widened as if he could see me.

"Um sure..."

"Alright Bae ill scoop through at like 12 tomorrow so be ready."

"Okay love you."

"Love you more." He said before hanging up.

I was literally about to cut on the water for my shower when I heard rapid knocks at the door. I ran to the room and grabbed my new tazer before running to the door. I looked out the peephole and sighed placing my tazer on the small table by the door. I opened it and all of a sudden I was being kissed by Javon. He closed the door with his foot and licked it without breaking the kiss.

"Javon....what.are.you.doing?" I said in between kisses.

"Journey I want you it's always been you I want you right now." I didn't even say anything I just wrapped my arms around his neck and continued the kiss.

He scooped be up placing me against the wall with his hands on my waist. He broke the kiss and looked into my eyes.

"I love you."

"I love you too" and for some reason it felt different than when I said it to Amod.

He kissed along my neck causing me to release a soft moan. He carried me into my room and threw me on the bed.

"What about Amod?" He said as he looked at me with hopeful eyes.

"We're not serious."

He crawled on top of means again began kissing me while rubbing my left thigh.
He pulled away and licked his lips before gently tugging at the bottom of my shirt. I lifted up a bit allowing him to completely pull it off then I took off his. He pulled off my pants and next his while I unhooked my bra. He stared at my naked chest and then looked up to me.

"Journey your so beautiful."

He kissed my right breast with his wet lips swirling his tongue around in the process making me moan in pleasure. He repeated that with the left one. He pulled off his boxers giving me full sight of his package. My eyes widened because all of that would not fit.

"Don't be scared now." He said laughing a bit.

"I got you don't worry."

In one swift movement he was inside and after I got used to his size we made love for the rest of the day.