My memory has failed me. My past haunts me. My decisions bite back at me with ferociousness not even a tiger would be able to achieve.
I don't know how much I've lost just doing it... But I know for a fact, that if I just sat there and didn't do any...
I'll be honest with you all, in the past 12 days I have written diddly squat. An occasional BlaBla fic I post on Reddit or in my server, but here? Nothing.
Well, that's half lie, I have actually tried to write, but ended up deleting the chapter because it felt sloppy. I'm honestly going through it right now, I feel my sense of direction in terms of writing degrading a bit, so I've decided to take a little bit of a break.
Usually it takes... two gives, give or take, to write a chapter? Well, this time my writing capabilities have been put through the wringer and I'm gonna need some time off to get back into it.
I'm positive it's just this arc that's giving me trouble... So in the meantime, I'll write something else. My options currently are Viper x Crow smut, Rosanna x Sakura x SKK smut, or a nice little friendly Rupee oneshot.
Or hell, I might just make more Bla fics because those turn out great usually.
Summer Break is on and I'm currently under stress for my driving exams, so go figure how that's gonna go. I also haven't been able to sleep properly for the last few days, my mind just refuses to shut down and end up staying up to 2-3 am with my eyes closed praying that I just shut off.
It's just... my psyche is completely worn out and I need to get it up before I continue. It's similar to that one time I was really sick and just couldn't write at all. My motivation has never been lower and it's hitting me like a motherfucker on steroids.
Do you guys have any good fics to read? Nikke related or not, I just want to have something to spark that motivation back into me. I'm willing to take recommendations.
Also... I apologize, for the fact my next chapter would be delayed. I always just beat myself up for disappointing others, so it would be really nice if you guys told me it's okay to calm myself down. Pretty please?
Also I'm lowkey in my Crow era right now... If God can forgive, then why can't I? #CrowDidNothingWrong !!! /s
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