Warning: Further down there will be excessive cussing. I suggest if you're not a fan of that...skip through.
This is the guy I was talking about in my chapter called "I'm caspers twin. hi."
Soooo this crush has a really close friend Billy knows him right?
So billy is also my friend and I told him "okay so what does bob think of me?"
Like bob better have said something nice or damn it im giving up on boys and I will fucking turn lesbian and fuck with their new bitch or fuck their bitch. Their choice. #sorrynotsorry
Literally that's what I was thinking while waiting for him to reply to my question. ^^
So billy tells me "I told him you like him and he smiled...."
Me as the over excited bitch I am interrupts and says "HE SMILED?!" I yell whisper.
"Yessss now if you let me continue..."
"Yeah yeah...go."
"He smiled and said..." He paused.
HE FUCKING PAUSED. LIKE DAMNIT DO NOT TEASE ME WITH THOSE KIND OF SENTENCES AND LEAVE ME ON A CLIFF HANGER LIKE NO WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU? I WILL MAKE YOU FINISH THAT SENTENCE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?
then he says "are you sure you want to know?" He looks somewhat mixed emotions about what he wants to say.
OFC I WANT TO KNOW.
"Of course?" I say.
Then he said something that knocked me right into reality. It ruined my day x10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
and it was Friday.
He said "okay Bob said he likes you..."
Me once again cuts him off. "HE LIKES ME?!? YESSSSS."
Then he waves me off then finishes "he'd like to fuck you."
I chocked on my air. Maybe my spit. Idk for sure. But I choked.
He searched to look at my face to see my reaction. (He also was laughing)
I just turned around and sat down and didn't say anything else.
I SWEAR ALL MY CRUSHES ARE NOTHING BUT ASSHOLES OR COCKY ASS MOTHERFUCKERS OR FUCKING FUCKBOYS. I NEVER ONCE FALL FOR THE "GOOD" GUY. LIKE AT THIS POINT I THINK ITS VERY RARE IF I RUN INTO A "GOOD" GUY BECAUSE IN TODAYS SOCIETY THERE IS ABOUT NOTHING AS A SUCH AS A "GOOD" GUY. THEY ARE ALLLLLL FUCKBOYS. WATCH OUT.
THEY ARE NO GOOD SON OF A BITCHES WHO WANT NOTHING BUT TO FUCK YOU AND FUCK WITH YOUR FEELINGS AND SOME SHIT.
I SWEAR THE NEXT FUCK BOY I FALL FOR I WILL WARN HIM "You better put a condom on your heart because I'm about to fuck your feelings."
LIKE ITS MY TURN TO FUCK YOUR FEELINGS.
DO. NOT. TRY. ME.
I SWEAR ALL IVE DONE WAS FALL FOR FUCK BOYS SINCE 5TH GRADE.
IM IN 10TH GRADE NOW. ITS BEEN 5 YEARS. 5 YEARS.
I SWEAR I HOPE I MARRY A GREAT MAN SINCE ALL I DO IS CHASE AFTER THESE LITTLE BOYS WHO NEVER GREW UP AND STILL FUCK AROUND LIKE ITS NO BIG DEAL.
LIKE ITS A BIG DEAL NOW. WE ARE IN FUCKING TENTH GRADE. WEHAVE 2 MORE YEARS OF HIGHSCHOOL AND YOU STILL ACT LIKE A CARELESS CHILD.
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU? 10?
no no maybe they're 5.
ugh sorry I had to get this all out my system. okay adios guys. Sorry for my over excessive cussing this time...I need to find my chill.. Bc right now I have ZERO chill, no chill at all.
I'm 👌🏽 this close to fucking saying all of this to all my past crushes faces. They need to get fucking knocked into reality bc if someone doesn't do it I GLADLY will with no problem.
Okay seriously I need to go while yall go on with your day...I will go find my chill. Okay baiiii.
