** My Last Downfall

--29 [ Him ]

''Stop following me.'' And so I stopped for today.

''I don't like the food you made.'' Angal niya nung ipinagluto ko siya kinabukasan. I still smiled.

''Your face annoys the hell out of me.'' He hissed and so I hid my face while he was watching.

That was my routine for the whole two freaking years. He was cold to me. I never saw him smiled at me. He was always mad. He was nice to everyone else but me. He was rude. He was different from the Prime I once knew. I did everything just for him to remember me but it seems he doesn't want. The more I try the harder he resist. They keep on telling me 'Stop it lei. You're just hurting yourself. You can't force someone to remember things he doesn't want to remember.' I'm on the verge of giving up but every time I see his face or hear his voice. I just can't I always end up still holding on.

''Why do you hate me?'' I asked while he was sick. Nilalagnat siya kasi nag football sila ni Blood tapos naubutan ng ulan. Mahina kasi resistensya niya.

''Just because...'' Nakapikit niyang sabi.

''All I ever did was do everything for you and yet you can't even smile at me?''

''I didn't asked for you to do those things for me.'' Walang emosyon niyang sabi tsaka ako tinalikuran.

''Kasi mahal kita. Kung mahal mo gagawin mo lahat para sa taong iyon. But... I guess they're right... Ayaw mo ng maalala kung sino ako... So...'' Natigil ako sa pagsasalita kasi parang may bumara sa lalamunan ko. Nag iinit na nga yung gilid ng mata ko. Talaga palang kahit sobrang mahal mo darating ka sa puntong mapapagod ka sa paulit-ulit na nangyayari.

''I'm giving up... Kahit masakit... If it'd make you happy. I'll do it even if it would destroy me. I'll put your happiness first. Hintayin ko lang bumaba iyong lagnat mo then I'll leave.'' Sabi ko tsaka tinalikuran siya. Magluluto ako ng soup for him. Habang nagluluto ako may pumapatak na palang luha ko. 2 years sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko ito. That this is worth it because I love him. Pero ang sakit eh. Parang I love him and at the same time he hates me. Minsan nakakasira ng ulo nasanay kasi ako na ako iyong ginagawa niyang prinsesa now it's the other way around. He hurt me with every chance that he gets. And maybe I'm stupid enough to let him hurt me this much. Now I'm done. Masasabi kong ginawa ko ang lahat ng makakaya ko. How can I fight someone who doesn't remember me? How can I hold on to someone who's drifting away?

Narinig ko noon na ikakasal na yung Cass. And I found out she's Prime long lost ex-girlfriend. Tapos he cried. Damn. He was hurt. And so do I. He took a flight back to Philippines. Gusto niyang panuoring ikakasal ang babaeng minahal niya sa iba. Pero may amnesia siya so ang akala niya si Cass parin ang mahal niya. How twisted can we get? I was watching him from afar. And after this I'm so done. Guess who's cass groom. It was ezekielle. Yung lalaking umiwan sa kapatid ni Blaire. Look how mess our life is.