KATYS POV
"okay, so this was when we first became.. let's saaay friends.. we weren't really together yet but we knew we wanted to be with each other." I said handing him yet another picture of us together. I got to take him home today and after a long day of sleeping, for the both of us, he wanted me to tell him about us.
"You helped me through a dark time in my life, and that's when I knew that I never wanted to be without you.." I said, lowering my head to look at my legs that were crossed in front of me as I sat Indian style on the bed. It was strange.. reminding the man that's lost him memory just how in love we were. I knew I could never explain what we meant to each other. It was impossible.. but for now this will have to do.
"You look really beautiful in this one." He said softly, as he admired the photo of us together he had just grabbed. I watched the side of his face as a small smile found a way onto his lips, making my heart leap out of my chest. "I mean- you're always beautiful." He quickly added, realizing what it sounded like he was saying while I giggled. "It's just that... I can't stop looking at you in this." He said, shaking his head in disbelief.
"That was when you first told me you loved me." I said, bringing him back to reality as he looked up from the picture to look at me. I blinked a few tears away as the memory of us on the beach came back to me. How happy we were, how I had finally felt like I was with someone who truly cared for me for once.
"Will you tell me about it." He asked, silently begging me with his eyes. I didn't really want to get into it because I knew I would break down but he needs to hear everything.
"Well we were walking on the beach one night and I noticed how you got quiet all of a sudden.. I went to ask you about it but you literally stopped dead in your tracks and pulled me towards you. I was confused at first but then you whispered the sweetest words.. "I'm in love with you." and from then on I never.. never got over you." I finished as I blinked a few tears down my cheeks.
"I'm sorry, if this is too upsetting just stop okay" He whispered, quickly wiping my tears away as I nodded my head yes. I wanted to explain everything to him but then it just kept reminding me of how he didn't remember.. how he didn't know me, or love me.
"It's fine.. I want you to know these things." I reassured him, wiping my remaining tears away. "Oh! and this is our baby...." I smiled reaching over and grabbing it from the nightstand. "It isn't much yet but here she is."
"She? Isn't it too early to know the gender?" He asked, slowly taking the photo in his hands.
"Yeah, but you always said it would be a girl.." I said and he quickly, almost forcefully handed it back to me.
"I'm sorry I just.. it freaks me out knowing I'm having a baby, and with a complete stranger." He sighed, making tears instantly spring to my eyes. Complete stranger. That's what I am to him. That statement finally made me realize that I was practically forcing him to remember us. What if he just wanted to go our separate way? This had to be extremely weird for him.. I just can't bring myself to accept it.
"Look if you don't want anything to do with me just go." I croaked, trying my best to talk as my throat closed up from wanting to cry. I don't know why I ever thought this was going to work. He won't remember me.. he ever will.
"Katy, I'm sorry that's not what I meant.. " He started but I immediately cut him off. I just wanted him gone.. this was hurting me too much.
"Actually I'll go.. this is your house." I realized as I got up from the bed. "I'm sorry I bothered you, just pretend like you woke up and I was never there" I said walking down the stairs, but I heard Johns footsteps behind me. Why is he chasing after me? I know this is what he secretly wants. Why would he want me around he doesn't know me. He doesn't love me. He doesn't care.
