JOHNS POV
I just kissed Katy.. I can't believe I actually just kissed her. I've been dreaming of that moment since she left me over a year ago. I didn't think I'd even ever see her again but now she's right here with me, well until Olivia interrupted us. Olivia. Shit what am I doing? I can't do this to her.
Katy and Olivia went back up to our room but Angela made me stay behind to talk to her. I have a feeling she knows something's up with us. I took a deep breath before turning to face her. She had an uneasy look on her face while she crossed her arms glaring at me.
"What happened. I know my sister well enough to know something happened and you're acting weird as well." She asked tapping her foot impatiently. She wasn't going to let this go until I told her the truth.
"I kissed her. I kissed her, Angela, and it was amazing.. " I admitted. "I've been praying for this moment but... "
"but you're with Olivia" She said finishing my sentence. I nodded my head yes, as many mixed emotions ran through my head. I couldn't just throw away my relationship with Olivia.
"I just.. I don't know what to do!" I said looking at Angela with pleading eyes, silently begging her to help me. "I want to go up there and continue kissing her Ang, I really want to." I whined trying to wrap my mind around this whole situation.
"Shit John, why do you get yourself in these situations!" She yelled uncrossing her arms. She was right though.. this makes twice that I've betrayed someone I loved. but this was different, this was for katy and katy was never a mistake.
"Looks like you need to go talk to her.. and sort this out because I swear John if you hurt her again I'll kill you. So if you don't want to be with her or even have the SLIGHTEST doubt.. then be blunt with her and move on. but if you stay with her, never leave her. never let her cry and hold her at night. tell her how beautiful she is every waking moment because dammit she deserves that from you. cherish every smile and if you fight just let her win. because losing a fight is a hell of a lot better than losing her."
Angela finished her speech before turning and walking away from me. She was right.. I needed to tell katy the truth. and the truth was that I was with Olivia now and I can't hurt her like I hurt katy. Katy doesn't deserve me so I need to just leave things as they are. I can tell that Angela wasn't kidding though, and if I did hurt katy she would kill me. Her speech was really heartwarming though, knowing she cared that much.
I slowly walked back up to our suite trying to decide how to break this down for katy nicely. I didn't want to ruin our friendship we had just created and I didn't want to hurt her. But I knew I was going to because I had just stood there and kissed her for who knows how long and she expects something from me but.. I can't give it to her. Plus she had just told me she was in love with me..
I made my way up to our suite and slowly opened the door afraid of what I might see before me.. but to my surprise it was extremely quiet with no one to be found. Just then I felt my phone vibrate and pulled it out of my pocket to see a text from Liv.
Liv: Hey, Angela and I went out. We'll be back in around 3 hours. Love you!
A sigh of relief escaped my lips knowing she was gone. Angela must've convinced her to go out so katy and I could be alone while we figure this out. I'm glad considering this could get very, very ugly. I slid my phone back in my pocket before lightly knocking on her door.
"Come in!" I heard, behind the door with her sweet angelic voice. She was definitely expecting the best and I was going to give her the worst.
I opened the door to reveal her dimly lit room, where she sat indian style on the bed. She put her phone down and smiled at me when she saw me enter the room and her smile lit up my world. Suddenly everything I had planned on saying left my mind. I was standing here and she was before me and I suddenly realized how stupid I was being.
