JOHNS POV
I woke up, in a quite uncomfortable position, soon realizing that I wasn't in the room.. I was on the couch. I only had a split second to ask myself why before I suddenly felt the weight of another human being in my arms. I looked down to see katy snuggled against my chest and smiled. I hope she got enough sleep last night, and hopefully she won't be feeling too horrible this morning.
That instantly brought my mind back around to last nights events. I sighed bringing her closer to me, as I remembered Chris. How he had his filthy arms around her against her will.. and how he had taken her out to get her drunk which is how we ended up here. It also reminded me that I promised myself to tell Olivia today. To tell her that i'm madly in love with katy. Maybe not in those terms.. I need to let her down gently, but blunt enough so she knows there's nothing more between us anymore.
It scared me to think about that though. I thought I loved her.. which in some since I think I did, but I was never in love with her. Katy is the only one who ever brought out that true feeling of love in me. She's the only one I put before myself.. and cared more for her well being, and did everything in my power to protect her. I know what it feels like to lose her and it's nothing that I ever want to experience again. Some say that in hell, you relive your worst nightmare over and over again for eternity.. and for me, that would be losing her.. seeing her broken heart plastered on her face, and knowing I caused that.. and to have it play over and over again.
I took a shaky breath as I recalled that horrible memory and reminded myself that it was in the past and that she was currently right here in my arms, waiting for me to make our love official. She's been so patient with me, and she has no reason not to hate me for what I've done and have been doing to her these past weeks.
"you okay, baby?" I heard her ask in her tired, almost raspy morning voice that I always found unbelievably cute. She didn't open her eyes, or even move for that matter and I started to wonder if I was hearing things.
"I'm fine." I replied, resting my head back down on hers before she moved out from under me and we were both laying on our sides facing each other.
"It felt like you were kind of shaking.." she said tracing my jawline with her finger. I placed my hand on her hip and smoothed my hand up and down her sides to reassure her everything was fine.
"I'm perfect..." I smiled, knowing that it was 100% true now that I was with her. "The real question is.. how are you?" I asked raising an eyebrow, slightly smirking as her cheeks turned pink in embarrassment.
"All I remember is Chris.. drinking a lot.. and then a little bit of you here and there." she said placing her palm on her forehead trying her best to remember last night. "I'm so stupid." she whispered burying her face into the couch.
"No. Listen to me. Katy listen to me." I repeated until she finally moved her head up to look at me. "None of this was your fault.. he tricked you and he used you."
She swallowed nervously and I watched as she took a deep breath before letting it out. "but I shouldn't have went with him... I was just-"
"It doesn't matter, I have you now." I interrupted not needing to hear her excuses. Whatever they were I wouldn't care. All that mattered was her body cuddled up against mine.
"Are... are we okay?" She whispered, and I could tell she was nervous to hear the answer. She thought I was mad at her and it broke my heart. I gently lifted her chin and placed my lips against her.
"We're good baby." I said kissing her again, but stopping before things got too out of hand considering we were in the middle of the living room.
She smiled before stretching and finally noticing the clothes she had on. "These are hideous together, who picked these!" she gasped examining her attire. I rolled my eyes, amused by how she was so worried about her pajamas matching..
