KATYS POV
No. This can't be happening. Out of everywhere in the world we both decided to come here, at the same time, and SOMEHOW the same fucking room. I'm glad to see him but also heartbroken. If I were to ever see him again I didn't want it to be with another woman. and a very attractive one at that. At least he's happy.. probably happier than he ever was with me. He deserves that though, he's been through enough because of me.
I sat down with Angela and begged her to let us leave, I told her how this would negatively effect me but she was all like "good things could come from this" blah blah blah. So moral of the story is we're still here. And we're not leaving. I haven't seen John or Olivia since our awkward meeting though. I've been kind of hiding in my room trying to sort out all my feelings.
I decided to sneak into the kitchen to see what I could find to eat considering I haven't eaten all day. I bit my lip nervously hoping that no one would see me.. I wasn't in the mood to face them.
I peaked my head out of my door and looked both directions noticing that no one was in sight. Did everyone leave? Figures.. I thought to myself rolling my eyes. I walked into the kitchen and opened all the cabinets looking for anything I could find to eat. "Where's all the food in this place damn." I whispered to myself reaching up to open the highest cabinet up.
"Try the fridge." I heard a male voice say behind me and jumped quickly turning around to see John there. He was leaning against the door frame, arms crossed, smirking at me. I felt my cheeks turn red as the thought of him watching me without knowing entered my mind. I watched as his eyes traveled down my body and I suddenly remembered I was in a big long sleeved baseball tee with no pants on.
"Shit, I'm sorry." I bit my lip nervously pulling the shirt down as far as I could trying to cover up. He didn't mind though, he just kept staring at me hungrily, kind of annoying me.
"I've seen a lot more of you katy, it's okay." He chuckled giving me a sad, small, smile.
"We aren't together anymore so it's weird." I said awkwardly shuffling my way to my room to put on my jeans before returning back to the kitchen. He was still there.
"Um, so Katy.. Liv and I are going out to this really nice place for dinner tonight and we want you and Angela to join us?" He asked scratching the back of his head with his right hand as his left hand sat comfortable in his front pocket. He seemed nervous, and it warmed my heart knowing I still had this effect on him.
"I don't know John.." I sighed turning back around. I placed both my hands on the counter as I stared down at it. I couldn't go through the heartbreak of seeing them, this wouldn't be a good idea.
"Katy cmon please, I've missed you." He admitted and I heard footsteps approach me. Don't cry Katy, not now. My body slightly flinched at the touch of his hand around my waist but I soon sunk into his embarrass as he pulled me to his chest.
"There we go.. this is a proper hug." He chuckled teasing me about the rather intense and.. awkward hug we had just over an hour ago. "I still want you in my life, Katy. You're too important to just rid of my life altogether.. so friends?"
I shut my eyes tightly at that word. Friends. Was it better than nothing at all? I pulled away and nodded my head yes. "Friends." I smiled, forcing the tears that wanted to pour onto my cheeks to stop. I wanted so much more than friends.
"Thank you." He smiled and then unexpectedly kissed my cheek, pulling away ever so slowly. I swear he could hear my heart beating out of my chest in this very moment.
"Dinner tonight at 7, you're coming." He smiled backing away from me to re enter his room. I kept my eyes on him as I watched him plop down beside Olivia placing a loving kiss on her cheek. That should still be me. We should be married by now, why did I end things? I mean yes he slept with someone else but I think he was truly sorry. Oh well, I can't change the past.
