suicide notes 「 jungkook 」

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①
muse undisclosed desires

"i want to reconcile the violence in your heart.
i want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask.
i want to exorcise the demons from your past.
i want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart." 

②
coldplay x&y

"i'm diving off the deep end.
you become my best friend.
i wanna love you,
but i don't know if i can.
i know something is broken,
and i'm trying to fix it,
trying to repair it
any way i can."

③
marianna's trench porcelain

"the slow and simple melody
of tears you cannot keep from me.
it's alright if you don't know what you need.
i'm right here when
you need someone to see."

④
christina perri distance

"and i keep waiting
for you to take me.
you keep waiting
to save what we have.

so i'll make sure to keep my distance,
say, 'i love you,' when you're not listening.
and how long can we keep this up, up, up?"

⑤
troye sivan ease

"but all this driving is driving me crazy.
and all this moving is proving to get the best of me.
and i've been trying to hide it, but lately,
every time i think i'm better,
pickin' my head up, getting nowhere.

take me back to the basics and the simple life.
tell me all of the things that make you feel at ease.
your touch, my comfort, and my lullaby,
holdin' on tight and sleepin' at night,
holdin' on tight and sleepin' at night."

⑥
birdy beautiful lies

"tell me beautiful lies.
i wish that i had the strength to let go, but i don't.
i'm paralyzed.
i see the child in your eyes, and i'm stuck in the headlights."

⑦
coldplay don't panic

"bones sinking like stones,
all that we've fought for.
homes, places we've grown,
all of us are done for.

we live in a beautiful world.
yeah, we do. yeah, we do.
we live in a beautiful world."

⑧
damien rice the greatest bastard

"am i the greatest bastard that you know?
the only one who let you go?
the one you hurt so much you cannot bear?
well, we were good when we were good,
when we were not misunderstood.

you helped me love; you helped me live;
you helped me learn how to forgive.
didn't you?
i wish that i could say the same,
but when you left, you left the blame.
didn't you?

am i the greatest bastard that you met?
the only one you can't forget?
am i the one your truth's been waiting for?
or am i just dreaming once again?
some dreams are better when they end."

⑨
eden gravity

"and you say i drink and i smoke and i talk too much,
but i know you lied when you said that you just had enough and save yourself.
so hear me out.
you know everybody talks, girl,
and it means nothing till you let it;
and if you keep second guessing,
then there's only gonna be one end.

but you can leave if you really want to,
and you can run if you feel you have to.
and i can drink if i feel i have to.
i know it's hard, but i can't feel like i used to,
like i used to.
cos i used to defy gravity."

⑩
zayn it's you

"she got, she got, she got
her own reasons for talking to me.
and she don't, she don't, she don't
give a fuck about what i need.
and i can't tell you why,
because my brain can't equate it.
tell me your lies,
because i just can't face it."

⑪
billie eilish when the party's over

"don't you know too much already?
i'll only hurt you if you let me.
call me friend but keep me closer (call me back),
and i'll call you when the party's over."

⑫
the fray heaven forbid

"it's on your face; is it on your mind?
would you care to build a house of your own?
how much longer? how long can you wait?
it's like you wanted to go and give yourself away.

heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why.
hold on tight. wait for tomorrow; you'll be alright.
heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why.
hold on tight. wait for tomorrow; you'll be alright."

⑬
billie eilish listen before i go

"take me to the rooftop.
i wanna see the world when i stop breathing, turning blue.
tell me love is endless. don't be so pretentious.
leave me like you do."

⑭
muse aftermath

"states are crumbling, and walls are rising high again.
it's no place for the faint-hearted,
but my heart is strong, 'cause now i know where i belong.
it's you and i against the world,
and we are free.

from this moment,
from this moment,
you will never be alone.
we're bound together,
now and forever;
the loneliness has gone."

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