i wish i hadn't fallen asleep.
i wish my body didn't feel fatigue
so i could've listened to your voice
sing to me through the wall
just a little bit longer.
i would've found some excuse to invite you over
and we could finally talk one on one.
no pressure, no audience.
just words.
and i could listen to your voice even more.
i think i love your voice just a little too much.
when i heard it through the wall, it felt like
it was putting me back together.
truthfully,
i lied to you.
it wasn't the thunder i was really afraid of,
but myself.
i wonder if you're afraid of yourself, too.
but, i've thought it over for about an hour now
and i've decided i want to tell you the truth.
because i want us to be closer,
and i want you to trust me.
i used to think i only wanted to know you,
but i've realized
that i want you to know me, too.
and maybe this is a huge risk,
or a stupid mistake,
but i think i'm going to tell you everything.
i'll probably end up blurting it all out,
or phrasing it in a strange way,
and there's no guarantee that you'll even care,
but i think you might.
after all, you cared enough to call me out on
my more obvious lie.
and i care about you,
maybe even too much,
so the chance that you might care
is just too much to pass up.
but there's still that lingering,
concerned and worrisome voice
in the back of my mind
that keeps chanting at me,
"this could either make
it all fall together,
or completely fall apart."
-k.m.a
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suicide notes 「 jungkook 」
Fanfiction❝ usually, when people say they want to be alone, they don't mean it. they're just angry because they've been sad for so long . ❞ ❝ what would you know about that ? ❞ in which a strange girl leaves notes for the broken so they can make it through t...
