even though i have
love,
support,
security,
money,
an education,
and countless other things
i should be grateful for,
i still somehow feel empty
because i don't have
you.
but i know i can't.
not now.
not yet.
you have to get better.
i spoke to your eomma,
and it only reinforced my beliefs
that you should forgive her.
she's a good woman.
she loves you.
she only wants to move on.
but you still refuse . . .
you haven't even spoken
a word to me
in over a week.
did you know that i've been crying
almost every single night
because of you?
did you know i've been waking
everyone up with my
nightmares of you?
can you hear me through the wall?
why don't you call out to me
like you used to?
my oppas want me to go
to therapy
because these dreams
are so relentless.
i agreed to go
just so i could feel like i
was trying my hardest
to get better,
even when i know i'm
getting worse.
are you getting worse, too?
i know you must be;
i can feel it
in my chest
every time i have an anxiety
attack
because of the intense
worry
i have
for you
and only
you . . .
why have you locked yourself away
again?
why are you hiding
again?
you need help the most right now.
why won't you let me help you
again?
i have always known you needed me,
but it never fails to surprise me
that i need you just as much . . .
i miss you.
i miss talking comfortably with you.
i miss your laugh,
your smile,
your voice,
your eyes,
your everything . . .
i hate missing you.
when i'm missing you,
it feels like a part of me is missing, too . . .
something is definitely missing . . .
-k.m.a
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suicide notes 「 jungkook 」
Fanfiction❝ usually, when people say they want to be alone, they don't mean it. they're just angry because they've been sad for so long . ❞ ❝ what would you know about that ? ❞ in which a strange girl leaves notes for the broken so they can make it through t...
